no point for anything anymore
 

my fiance just left me for no reason when i gave up everything for him, im so heart broken and angry and sad he was my life. now its all changed like that and i cant cope i pass out and ive been trying to kill myself im just so lonely theirs one person i talk to who is their for me but i dosnt feel right, i told my doctor what ive been doing that was hard and scary but its been going on years and years a pychotherapist was meant to call me so i can see her but she hasnt yet its been 2 weeks and im falling apart im so confused with everything im scared about everthing to go out even and i just want to die i really do everyone i have known has always hurt me in the end i cant trust anyone i dont want to live pain anymore i want to be gone i want to be gone i want to be gone noone helps me they think im ok because i smile but im not inside why does everyone hate me and hurt me noone is ever their for me

I dont have any advise for you sorry. i want you to know that i am thinking of you and i am here anytime you need to talk.

Have you told your doctor that you have been trying to kill yourself? it really would be horrible to find out that you succeeded in killing yourself babe. please call a help line in your area or post on here or go into chat or something when you feel that bad.

*MASSIVE HUGS*