Hmmm.
 

I just want to hurt myself. A lot.
I don't know what else to do.
Sad and scared and lonely and yesterday I cut because I just had to. I couldn't help it.
When my boyfirned finds out he'll be sad too.

But I can't worry about that now. I have to go home soon (I'm in the library) and I just...don't want to.
I want a hug and someone to talk to.
I need to talk to someone. I don't know.
I dont't know what to do. Theres nothing I really can do.
I want to cry and scream and jump up and down like a small child.
And then just go to sleep.
And forget about it all.
I just want to make it hurt again. I want to make it bleed. But worse than last night.

*sending lots of safe cuddles*

i'm sorry you feel so down sweetie. i know you think your bf will beupset but could you try and talk to him about how you feel?

keep talking on here if you need to. you're not alone.

lots of love
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

*hugs*
Talking often helps things.
Try distracting yourself for a while.
You're worth more than this, xxx

Don't feel bad about cutting yesterday lovely - it sounds as if you're under a lot of pressure right now, so don't beat yourself up over it because you can carry on trying without going back to square one. I think your boyfriend would only be "upset" in the sense that he loves and cares about you a lot, so knowing that you feel this bad would hurt him too because he cares. If you feel the need to get a release from crying or from screaming, then do it. Scream into a pillow if you must, I know that can really help. Also crying is very therapeutic - I don't often cry and not very well so sometimes I just get some time to myself and do exactly that. Cry, scream, anything and it helps so much. Maybe this would help you too? If you could talk, what do you think you would talk about - maybe what triggered you yesterday? Stay safe sweetie,

xx

I know it feels to not want to go home. You just want someone there with you to talk to. Your mind is telling you to do so many different things that in the end all you can do it sit. You're not alone honey.

Do you know what triggered you the other day?
I'm sure your boyfriend will understand, even if he seems upset by it.

I hope you feel better soon, we're all here for you.
xxx