please i need some support. im kinda losing my mind
 

Erm, my night ws really hard, My head just really let rip on me
for no reason. Just this big tsunami of abuse thrashed against me all night long. and i've not slept. and im so fricking lonely.

and i cut myself..

i am so desperate, will
it be a fact of my life that forever more
i am to hate myself, and all that i do?
forever to be a stupid ****.

cutting cant be the only way to solve this
but i dont deserve more

just cut and starve. waste me.
i am nothing.

over and over and over

because i desrve nothing more
I AM A COMPLETE WASTE OF SPACE.
A COMPLETE ****
A WASTER
A ****

SELFISH MOTHER****ER.


i cant be.
can i? .. TO LATE! i am what i am..****ing waste of space
god i hate this. i cant stand this anymore


help?

sorry


xxxx

You arent a waste of space hun and your arent nothing. You are clearly struggling right now but that doesnt make you any of the negative things you mentioned. Reaching out and posting shows that you want help and that you are strong.

do you have any support for your eating problems and SI? Please be careful,,is there anything else that makes you feel better? there are other ways of dealing with things, writing, drawing, poetry, reading, watching a film, fun and distraction board - keeping yourself busy can helpa lot.

Being so tired from not sleeping probably isnt helping your mood, I always find I feel worse if I havent slept. Try and have a sleep at some point today, or have a relaxing day if you can and be kind to yourself.

Take care hun xxx

Alllllliiiiieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Omg hunni, you are soooo none of those things.

*hugs you so tight*
Oh and oh my goodness, you are so totally not selfish.

I wish I could give you a real hug.
Love you. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxx

i really wish i werent

Whoa!! Darling, you are never any of those things, nuh-uh.. Not at all..

You're amazing, beautiful both inside and out and you have helped so many people, despie your own suffering and struggling.. You have been so strong.. You slipped up, it's all part of recovery.. It's ok..

You are amazing, love and so many people love you and care about you so much! You are no way a waste of space, you are extremely worthy of our time, because you're struggling and we're here to help..

Talk to me if you need to, love, I am here for you

love you xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Allie sweetheart, u are NONE of those things - honestly. U are so kind and u always manage to brighten my day even if ure not feeling great ureself - therefore its impossible for u to be selfish.
I hope u start feeling better soon - u no where i am xx

thanks guys you are all fantastic! to even be thinking of me and showing support when you're all going through such hard times.

god i dont deserve you

xxx

Yeap you do!