making depression go away on it's own?
 

Im on 150mg of lamotrigine and 15mg aripiprazole. And they were working, it was great. I thought I was cured. I've got a new boyfriend and he's great.

But last week its all started to go wrong. Im starting to cry again, feeling really bad, not wanting to socialise, usual symptoms of depression. Ive been planning to kill myself to get rid of it. I hate being alive.

Maybe its exams, maybe its just general things getting me down, maybe its because ive drank every day for the past week. (Not loads, just a few cans/pints/bottles)

I dont know what to do. Its came back and i thought it had gone. I need it to go away, i am so sick of living like this (again). My dr cant really help so i am looking for ideas how to help myself?
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Why is it your doctor can't help?

Sorry, haven't really got anything helpful as crashed again myself a few weeks ago and wondering the same myself - do I want to keep fighting this? I'm assured, it will get better again and so at the moment just holding on. I'm just aiming for short term things eg my sister's wedding on this Sat and then another sister's 21st birthday a couple of weeks later, etc. One thing at a time and hope that it will improve again and this time when I am up and down, maybe I will appreciate it more.

I've tried cutting down on my drinking (oops, not tonight though) as I know it helps me feel better and not sh but tbh it makes me feel more down later on. Maybe you should try leaving it alone aswell.

Sorry to bring this up but I think you have said in previous posts that you use recreational drugs occasionally, maybe you could leave off them aswell for a little while til you level out again?

*hugs*

Take care hun

Hey.. my dr would only refar me back to CAMHS and they wont see me, so thats why im reluctant to go back.

Thanks for the advice, im going to try to think positive too, and try to make the most of each day x

cos i take recreational drugs and i wont let my mam get involved. Its okay i dont mind, i'd rather help myself :)
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Exam stress can tip the balance. I tend to end up in A&E a few weeks before my exams. How heavily are you revising? What exams are you taking in what subjects?

im 3 months off 18.

SM, im doing maths, physics, biology and chemitsry. I only have one left tomorrow. Ive been trying to revsie but sometimes it doesnt work cos im really tired and cant be asred x

yeah i will be. just gotta survive til september now !
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yeah could do... ill try and see him next week. It might just be cos of exams though.. i thought it was coming back again x

thanks hun :) only one left x

good luck with your exams, hopefully its only exam stress thats doing you in *hugs*

Wow I do the same a-levels as you. What exam boards for those subjects? Which one do you like the most?

Do you work better in the morning or in the evening? Take advantage of the hours you work best at.

What is the reason for your tiredness? It is meds?

I think its meds why im tired all the time!

Im doing AQA for the exams and I like physics and maths best. I dont like biology lol.
Not sure when i work best! Its over now and i'm feeling abit better.. xx

Take good care Ami xox

thankyou xx

How long have you been taking these meds? When I took Abilify I got double insomnia (i.e. meds-induced insomnia on top of my normal insomnia).
I'm doing OCR and Edexel. I don't like biology either and love physics and maths. I'm going to do physics in uni. What do you want to do in uni?

Ive been on them since janurary.

I want to do civil engineering! I liked the mechanics in physics. x

you feeling any better sugar?

abit yeah, but i keep feeling suicidal :/
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How are you doing today, hun?

Am better, it was probably my exams but im still feeling down, and suicidal at some points x