Can't be here for a while - update
 

I might not be around for a bit – and I am really sorry I never got back to answering the posts that I said I would – (Yellow and Hells) and that I probably wont be here to support everyone that means tons to me.
I have spent all afternoon and most of the evening at the Hospital – not for me.. My mum hasn’t been too good since my dad died and today she couldn’t stay awake this morning – I said for her to lie down but this afternoon I went to check on her and couldn’t wake her up – she was really funny colour and her breathing sounded gurgly and weird. I phoned the doctor and they came up about half hour later – they rang an ambulance and I have been there since. They say she has had an angina attack but they are worried about her heart – she is all hooked up with machines at the moment and not really aware of anything. I feel so churned up – I’m so worried – my dad only died 7 weeks ago – I’m really scared.
I’m going to stay home tonight and go back first thing in the morning -they said they would call if anything changed in the night. Please let her be OK – I don’t think I can cope right now. I can’t do this, I don’t think I can.
I’m sorry everyone but I needed to tell someone and I wanted you to know that I’m not ignoring you or forgetting you – I just can’t cope with it all right now – I’m really worried and I won’t be any good here at the moment.
Lots of hugs to last for everyone xxx

*hugs you* Don't worry about not being able to be here at the moment hun, you have to do what is best and necessary for you and your family but please don't think that because you don't feel up to supporting that you aren't welcome. I hope and pray everything gets better with your mum and will be thinking of you. Do let us know if we can help at all. My PM box is always open. Take care of yourself xxx

I'm sending you good wishes and crossed fingers hun. I'm here if you ever need to talk. Please look after yourself, we'll all be thinking of you while you're away. Take care, I really hope everything turns out okay *hugs*

*snuggles* Your family has to come first and we understand that. We'll be here if you need us hunni. Your mum will be in my prayers tonight hun, as awell as you xxx

Saying prayers for you and your mom.

Katch honey no apologies are necessary but the fact that it even occurrs to you to say sorry just shows how kind and caring and considerate you are.
you come first, you and your mum, so please just look after the both of you and focus on yourself and her, but don't neglect you! you are no good to your mum if you arent okay.
*huggles you*
let us know how you are when you can
xxxooo callie

HUGE snuggles for you and lots of prayers for your ma.

*hugs you loads*

I hope your mum will be ok hun, we'll all be thinking of you both,
Look after yourself hun xxx i'm here if you need anyone to talk to.

xxEmmaxxx

please dont worry about us Katch.
you tend to your Mom and im praying she is ok.
lots of love and *snuggles*
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hunni, you take as much as you need and spend it with your mum (((hugs)))

Take care we will all be here when you come bck xx

Praying for your mum as well (((hugs)))

Take as much time as you want sweetie. Your health, and that of your family comes first. Spend time with your mum, and I'm praying for her.

I'm around if you ever need anyone to talk to or anything I can do, just let me know sweetie.

*huge huge snuggles*

Take care.
xxx

Don't worry about not posting, concentrate on your mum.
I hope she gets better soon.
Take care of yourself too
*hugs katch*
You know where we are xxxxx

*snuggles* Oh Katch, sweetie I'm sorry. Please just take care of yourself and your mom hun and remember that we all love you

hope your mummy gets better so my lovely. remember to look after yourself too *esky squeeze* xxxxx

Hi all, Thank you for the words of support – really need them right now, it’s been a long and very emotional day – Mum was fairly stable during the night but whilst I was there this morning they gave her a drug (called GNT I think) that was meant to help with her heart – but suddenly she lost consciousness and all the alarms went off – the doctors all rushed round – I was so scared I thought she was going – they said her heart stopped and it turns out it seems she had an allergic reaction to the GNT (the doctor said to me that 99.9% of people are OK with it).
I feel absolutely exhausted and done in – not sure if I want to cope with all this – I just feel so unsure of the future. I know you all understand why I’m not posting but please know that I am thinking of you all – I wish I could have you here by my side. xxx

we'r all there in spirit sweetie, giving supportive squeezes. xx

We are all thinking of you sweetheart and praying your mother gets better soon. Take care of yourself xx

WE LOVE YOU Katch!!!!!!!! <3 <3 <3

We do indeed love you Katch.

You're in everyone thoughts & prayers.

Hope your mum starts improving soon :]

xxxxxxx