Loneliness
 

Whenever I do something with my friends, I manage to have a good time and seem like a happy person, but after they leave I always have this hug drop in attitude. I feel so alone, so depressed afterwards that I don't know what to do. It is way worse than if I would have just done nothing, but of course I don't want to do that. I end up sacrificing feeling okay for some moments of happiness followed by extended periods of extreme sadness.

I guess I was just wondering if anyone else ever felt like this, and if so if they have anything they do to try and cope.

*hugs* this is something i struggle with a lot and ive come to the conclusion thats its about me not feeling deserving of the good times. Could this be similar for you? Sometimes i wonder whether allowing myself to have the good times are worth the low-ness that inevitably comes afterwards, but ive come to the conclusion that it's actually ok to have some fun and to feel 'ok', even if just for 5mins.
But yeah, i can relate to wat ure saying.
Love and hugs
Dani
xx

I get that when I go out. I enjoy being out with friends but when I get home I'll feel so alone. But it's so worth it because you make some good memories while you're out and about. I just try and look forward to the next time I see my friends and distract myself inbetween.

I agree with dani i find it hard to allow myself to have a good time and feel deserving of that. For me believing that the people i am with wants to be with me and that they aren't thinking that i dont deserve to enjoy myself.
Is this how you feel are is it something else?
Mark

I have this feeling anytime I hang out with either of my two friends, but I don't really have any advice about it, thats why I'm on here and several other online boards trying to feel like I'm needed to one of them.

Now that I think about it lot of the sadness could be due to the fact that I don't find myself worthy for happiness.

I'm really glad that I'm not as alone as feel though and that others feel the same as I do. I will try to just look forward to the good times. Thanks for the support.