Depressed&other stuff.
 

I am on seroxat paroxetine 30mg, and i dont think its really working. I feel really depressed. I hate feeling this way, and ive felt this way for a long time. It may be sunny outside, but in my heart im sad, i feel so low. My appetite has decreased a lot. And i really want to self-harm. I havent done it for over 8 weeks now. But theres only so long I can go before i have to give in.
Also, i believe that people are having access into my thoughts, and that they are able to read them, and remove my thoughts.
Im scared to take my meds because if i do, i will turn into a zombie. Literally. The dead will make me one of them.
But am i dead already? Am i just a ghost? I feel like im not connected to my body at all.

How long have you given the medication? Often it can take weeks or more for the full effect to kick in.