How do I deal with my father's abandonment?
 

My father was extremely verbally abusive and made me touch him sexually.
He then decides that I'm not worth enough of his time and money, and abandons me.
I've been going to therapy for two years now (it was four years ago, but I was in denial about it for two years until I became suicidal (I brought x (number removed) pills - some risperadol and another serious medience - to school and planned to sneak into an abandoned room and overdose).
I just don't understand HOW he could do this to me! I loved him, and I just wanted a little bit of that back. :crying:
How do I move on? Is there anything you can recommend?

I lost my therapist two months ago, so I've been having an even rougher time then usually, making me want to self harm again (and I've done so)

: hugs:: my Dad left when I was 1... only lived 15 mins away my whole life ( i'm nearly 18) hardly ever bothered with us... and on the very rare occassion he did ask to veiw us.. it was only cos his mum nagged him and made him. I wish she hadn't. He was a drunk. I keep being told that it's not me, it's nothing i've done, i don't deserve to be treated like how he has treated me, it's just some people make absolutely crap parents. They are too mucked up in their own minds and have skewed emotions so they don't know how to love us. It's not your fault. You're just as good as everyone you see around you. ::more hugs::
PM me anytime btw... sorry i can't be of much help...
Emma
p.s. my brother is autistic too..