RYL Forums - another poem- dont think it triggering

This is a poem for somebody I loved and trusted so much wrote it bout 6 months ago hope you like it:

Ive always been trouble,
ive never been good,
people have tried to help me,
all that they could.

When someone gets close,
I pushed them away,
I used to wonder why everyday.

Then there was charlotte,
She really did care,
But I was so scared,
That suddenly she just wasn’t there..

I ran away she called me each day,
and sent me texts to make me feel ok,
after 2 weeks I decidied to go back,

she didn’t bother me ,
she said she would support me either way,

when I tried to ruin it,
she stuck to her promise,
the only one who had.,

because no matter how much I hurt her,
she still cared.
And she was so special,
And was always there.

I am so sorry for making her sad,
She was one special person,
il always know that.

I wrote this for my foster carer about 6 months ago. She was the best person ever and im stupid for pushing her away so much. I still love her to pieces but I know that a person can only put up with so much. And maybe that’s why she never wants to see me again but I will give her credit she stuck with me through some ****. She took me back after 8 months. Don’t know how to explain it but have you ever heard of the saying: when you want something it might seem something brilliant but it is completely different to when you get It don’t know if im making sense. I think I had grown too independent to live back in a family setting maybe that’s why it didn’t work. They took me in and treated me like their own and that place will always be my true “HOME”