it hurts
 

it hurts so much. i like her so much. i think i might even love her. but it's never going to be what i want. i burned myself with a cigarette last night just to feel something else. just a minor slip up. nothing big. i just want her. and i want her to want me. at least she knows everything and she doesn't feel awkward around me. i just hate holding back. i want her all the time. this is killing me.

Disappointment can be hard. As can feelings that are more one way. Is it that you feel very lonely? It's good that she accepts you as you are.

Have you tried telling her this?
Perhaps she needs to know how you really feel.

I feel like I've told her enough already. I'm glad she knows and I'm so happy she's perfectly fine with it. I feel like I should distance myself but then I would feel even worse. It's pretty much a lose-lose situation =(

shit that sounds so familiar . well it did but just when i had given up of her ever feeling the same..she did .scars and all...so just hang in there because you never know