there's never a good time to quit
 

I'm trying to quit cutting, I'm trying to re-organize my life so that i can exist like a normal adult, and i can use what i've learned in my life to get through the hard things. I'm really excited about this and i think it might work, the only problem is that while i'm still young, i've lost a lot of the support i used to have. I'm 21 years old and in my 3rd of 5 years of university, i have great friends a lot of whom know i cut, and a therapist, who i see once a week. but i'm still afraid that maybe i waited too long and that i cant do it now. my friends are here for me, but i cant ask them for help anymore, i just cant, there's nothing they can do and logically they shouldn't even have to know people who cut. plus there's all my class work and life responsibilities, i'm scared that it's all gonna be too much and i'll fail at either taking care of myself and staying alive or at quitting cutting. i doubt this makes sense, i'm just scared about having to face this primarily on my own.

*dares self to claim it*
I am going intop recovery...and i realized the other day that i'm SCARED of it...27 years of my life has been SI and abuse..i dont know HOW to live properly, 'normally' but i believe with all support i have now, i can do this; Quit drinking , Smoking is next *curls up and dies lol*
And you're friends are STILL your firends even tho they know you cut....they care for you. If it bothered them they would have lsowly disappeared..(tis what happend to me :o( )
Keep fighting, you sound determined.
I wish you all the luck and hard work
thinking of you
romp

By the sounds of it you're anything but on your own! Friends who know what you are going through and are still there are true friends and should be cherished. I know it can be scary when you look at the big picture so just take each day as it comes. If you should slip up, so what. Pick yourself up, dust yourself down and keep going. You are still young and sound determined. I truly wish you the best of luck!
Pam xx