A bit of a ramble but looking for advise - may trig
 

I'm pretty busy lately with my new job. There is lots to learn. I wanted a job to give me some structure and some money of course but it has it's drawbacks!

I just wanted to ask really if you have to self harm to use this site. I used to self harm quite a lot but now I only do very occasionally. I tend to use this site as an outlet for any ' emotional issues' and also to feel part of something where I can give something back when I feel up to it.

I have found it hard to admit to ' getting there' as far as my depression is concerned. I think I came to rely on the CAMHS service ( I am still involved with them to a degree, there is discussion about me joining group as a kind of exist stratagy. I recognise I cannot stay in CAMHS forever.)

I have never been too good at mixing with people and honestly don't know why that is, I guess we are all different. I will always maintain that I have had an 'element' of depression in me since a very young age..say 5. I'm very self concious. I will look around and there will be all these girls who look; for want of a better word 'pretty' with gorgeous hair and I just look at them and think wow - Why can't I be like them?

It feels like I want to give up but I know that if I do and I get it wrong the company won't want me back and then I'll still be here, in a worse situation and to make matters even worse; without a job.

Well I have to go to bed now as I have work tomorrow but if people could look at this and maybe if I think of ore I want to say I will update it.

thank you so much,

Syrup.

No, you don't have to self harm to use this site. Family, friends, recovered self harmers and those just wanting to know more come to this site. So don't worry about it. You're welcome here. :)
Giving up shouldn't even be an option. Just keep doing your best and you will be fine.
Feel free to PM me or add me to msn if you ever want to talk.

As Raistlin said you don't need to selfharm to use this site, if you like being here and it's good to have somewhere here you can let out things that are bothering you.

Not everyone finds it easy to mix with people, I know I used to find it impossible until I went to uni and forced myself to. Try and find social situations you are comfortable with and ty and mix with people there. I know how you feel when you look around and think everyone else is gorgeous. I'm sure you are gorgeous too, most people don't feel like they are either, I have a friend who is absolutely stunning and she thinks she's ugly and I'm sure that most of the people you see are insecure about something or other.

Feel free to PM me if you would like someone to talk to, take care x