~Struggling
 

Im really struggling.
Im really sad
Im really lonely
Im really feeling ill from this cold.
Im really finding anything and everything a real battle right now.

I feel like im in freefall and gathering speed further and further down.
Im sorry

I'm sorry to hear you're feeling so ill and lonely.

*Offers you a parachute and a mattress at the bottom*

Hey Mr.

Just to remind you [again] that I care loads. I'd give anything to give you a cuddle right now.

Look after yourself please.

x

I'm sorry that you're feeling so bad right now. Hopefully the feeling will pass soon. Keep talking to us if it helps, we're always here for you. I hope things get better. *hugs*

*catches you from freefalling*

Im sorry youre feeling so low hun, I know it feels like you are alone but youre not, Im always here if you want to talk, wish therer was more I could do

*offers you big warm cuddles*

Love Lora xxxx

you are never alone

I am sorry your feeling low...u are never alone. *cuddles u*

My Ninjapenguin friend,
I hear you about your struggling my friend please hold on and keep in touch with RYL and the vets its great that you have been able to say how you feel please keep doing it.

i understand you feeling sad, lonely and ill from your cold.
i hear you about finding everything a battle my friend

im finding things a battle myself,but wanted to reach out to you
please keep battling my friend and hanging in there
please know you are cared about by many friends here at ryl
please know your not alone many friends are here for you matthew

i hear you about feeling like your freefalling please try and hold on
we are here and we will be with you as much as we can
your a very supportive and caring friend

you have nothing to be sorry for mate, im thinking about you mate

Dave

How're you doing this morning?

This morning is bad. Hopeless and bad.
I purposefully cut today. It wasnt a slip. I wanted it and i enjoyed it.
More superficial crap, nothing like i am capable of.

I dont even know what im capable of. Probably nothing. nothing at all.

Im low. Really low. I can feel it in my head. Its like flu.

My chouces and my decisions yet the pain that goes withit is something i never expected, never anticipated.

i showered and went for a drive. Pointless really. Wandered around the bleak **** hole that is Scunthorpe. A depresives dream. If you want hell then visit Sunny Scunny.

i had to force myself not to cry in the shop. Force myself not to cry in the car on the way home.

Why now? Why me? Why the **** did this happen to me?

Matthew,
Hugs, im sorry mate that this morning was so bad for you,

Even if you purposefully cut please try not to be so hard with yourself.
you feel the need to cut right now, its still a way of coping wether you couldnt control it or as you say you wanted to cut.staying safe is really important mate. Be as patient as you can,
we still support you and care we arnt judging you ok

hey right now you will be worried about what you might do, please keep talking if i helps stay strong and safe mate your not alone

i understand your low let others here support you matthew, i hear you about feeling pain from your choices n decisions if you can dont be to hard on yourself.

hey its good your trying to take care of yourself and going out for a drive mate is a good step its getting you out and doing something.

I hear you about forcing yourself to stop yourself crying in the shop and in the car, my friend i know how hard that is. If you can cry in private then it will help you release some emotion.

my friend wondering why now ,why me, why did this happen to me they are sometimes like the questions that might have no answer, we all ask these questions mate i do with myself alot, you may be able to figure them out, but whats important is looking after yourself and working through stuff best you can.

hang in there

Dave

Matthew I'm so sorry that you're feeling this way. sending sympathy and hugs xxxxxxxxxxx

I understand Scunthorpe. I did lots of teaching practices there. Bleak suburbia doesn't help depression.

I also understand that hopeless feeling of nothingness. I've been there.

If you need to cry, cry. Can you find or create a safe place for yourself to cry?

Scunthorpe is a **** hole. But you won't be there forever. Promise.

*hugs pengy*

Matthew you have friends...you know I can say all over the world because we have proof that you just came back from sunny Oz and though you didn't meet Judy Garland you did meet Erin who I hear is a close second. You know, I can scroll up, I'm in Surrey, we have Sydney, Southampton, London, Canada...Scunthorpe may suck, but you have people all over the world who love you and who want to help you through this and who would do anything for you. I don't if that helps or means a lot to you but you're a special bean you know. Take care Sir. xxxx

I thought average Dave could drop by and offer some average (if not worse) support. Failing that i can always give you a ludicrously chocolatey milkshake.


I don't really know what to say but I just wanted you to know that I'm here if you need anything and I care about you. You're a great guy and I wish I could do more.

Thank you all. Thank you so much xxx

Mathew, Listen to what you said earlier.
You went out. Yes it was depressing, but you wnt. Youwent around the shops and you drove. Hunni when you feel low, this on its own is a huge accomplishment.
Not long ago, theanixety at the thought of doing any one of those things would have put you hiding under your bed for a week. Yet now you are still trying, even if you feel crap! Hun that is a big achievement.
Im proud of you for fighting this. I know you can beat it. You dont need to go back down that dark path. You know there is nothig but more pain down there. So keep fighting it.

Yeah, CrAimee is right. Even on the other side of the world there is someone that cares about you so much.

You are fighting. You are doing amazingly. You have taken impressive strides the past month or so. I have SEEN them with my own eyes. You went out BY YOURSELF in SYDNEY. And i was so proud i almost cried. Well, mebbie i did a little, but shhh.

oh, no, correction, by YOURSELF in Sydney TWICE!

You can fight this Matthew. You have already proven that to us, now its time to see it for yourself.

We all love you and believe in you.