How to deal with this frustrating feeling?
 

Hi everyone,

I'm in my 20s and I'm here because I'm going thru something a little odd that I don't think too many people will understand. So it's a little frustrating.

Basically, I went through a rough patch that lasted almost a decade (teenage years to early 20s). Anxiety that basically led to broken friendships, relationships, missed opportunities....

But, good news, after a lot of hard work I'm doing pretty well! Sometimes I get feelings of peace wash over me and everything makes sense again and it obviously feels pretty good.

HOWEVER, it doesn't always last..sometimes I end up in my head again (there are a lot of unresolved situations in my past that I'll never know the answer to) and it frustrates me because all I want is to just go back to that feeling...and I end up trying to force myself to go back to it and it obviously doesn't work that way so I end up feeling frustrated. It's a natural process getting there, I can't just click my heels together and "voila!"...

Would anyone have advice on this? Thanks :-D

I read that like you were talking about me! :)
Like you my whole teenage life was a rough patch which just went downhill from a very young age!
Anyway...this feeling..I believe it is ease, hope..excitement for the possible future you feel you can create for yourself...its a little glimmer of what we could feel all the time so its sad when we dont!
I think we end up back in our heads because of all our doubts, all the "what ifs" all our past experiences come to mind and try to suck us back into thinking its all hopeless!
I havent found an exact way to beat this yet (Waiting to start therapy in a little under two weeks now) so instead I just sit with it! Sometimes its torture... but it will pass and that warm fuzzy feeling will return ;) Try meditating on nice thoughts, but I understand when your in the depths of it meditating can be a struggle!
Try focusing on the things that you desire, that excite you, that you want to achieve while on this earth!
Just writing that made me feel like maybe dreaming too big is what brings me back down, I come back to reality and think "wtf am I thinking, I'll never get a chance to do that" but **** that!
Dream big, expect the unexpected and remember nothing is impossible!! I bet before you turned things around you thought things would never be good again? But they were! So just hang in there...lifes a rollercoaster full of ups and downs, we gotta swing with the punches!! Congrats for just getting to where you are right now, I know its not easy :-)

Thank you for understanding!! Phew I really thought I was the only one who ever experienced this. Thanks for your response!

Staying focused on my goals and what I want really does help. I notice that sometimes my thoughts rev up right before I'm about to do something I enjoy so you can imagine how annoying that is! I just try and stay focused...

You're right...there was a time when I thought it wouldn't get any better than the opportunities I missed in the past. Now I see that's not true. I guess it also doesn't help that I don't rly have anyone to talk to about this so I get even more aggravated. But all I can do is accept and be patient...

Sorry if this post is all over the place, I'm at work lol