Going Crazy
 

Lately I have felt so crazy. Then I think about it, and if I was actually going crazy, I probably wouldnt know I was going crazy. I mean does a crazy person know that he/she is going crazy?

I have been so overwhelmed lately, my moods are flucuating (cant spell) so frequently. I mean one minute I am totally fine and the next minute I seem to be getting depressed.

I guess I just have to much going on. I have some family issues going on; and im not going to lie, it affects everyone as a whole in my family. I am struggling with a break up. I guess I just feel so alone no matter how many people are surrounded.

I also just got out of the hospital for a failed suicide attempt. I guess I am just so tired of hurting, that the only logical answer I could come up with was being gone. I know it was stupid but i guess we do desperate thing in deserate times.

Basically I am looking for any support on helping me partialize things so that I can avoid getting to that point again.

Peace and Love <3
Mek

i'm no good at giving advice and things, but *giant hugs*

i hope you find the help you need, and sorry i couldn't help you

george x

Thanks for the hug, sometime the best thing you can do to help someone is be there and acknowledge what he/she has said. Thanks again!

Again, bad with the whole advice thing but I'm happy to listen and *hug*
Guess all I can say isI feel the same...

I think you need to hang in there and realise that external events in youre life, like your break up and your family, do not have a bearing on your level of happiness, and that rather, it is your relationship with these that does. It is the way you view them and the way you react accordingly. What is frustrating you, and making you feel lonely is not those around you, but it is your own mind telling you you should feel that way. Negative events and situations do not last forever, and likewise, neither do negative reactions and feelings. This is why we shouldnt hold on to our feelings of negativity, because by the time we get to feeling upset about things, it is too late to change things anyways, so all that you can do is to let go and to keep on keeping on.

We are so quick to come up with reasons to give up in this life, and thats because these are the things that are staring us right in the face. But what we need to do is take a breather and think what are some reasons to hang on? Its not a question of whats left to live for, its a question of what isnt. The only way you can ensure that things are ever right again with your family is to stick things through to the end. The only way to honour the relationship you had, is to move on with things and to appreciate the good times while they lasted. Life isnt about creating permanent happiness because permanent happiness is a myth. Its about striving to be happy with where we are right now and what is going on in our lives. I am not going to deny that it is hard, but the work you put in now reaps rewards that are tenfold later on.

I am in complete amazement as I read your words. I guess it really has got me thinking in what I can do to be happy again. I know that I need a change, I need to change my thinking in order to change my behaviour. Its just actually identify what I need to do different that I am having a problem with. Thanks for your words of wisdom, they have truely touched me.