Problems With My Recovery...
 

Christmas is hard for many people but especially those with ED's.

Keep eating your normal amount of food - even if it's ''christmas foods''

Placing less emphasis on it being christmas helps too.

Liddy x

I definitely understand the feeling comfortable in the underweight category. Years ago when I first started recovery and gained weight to be considered "healthy" I just hated myself. Now that I got real sick again I'm terrified and basically just not letting myself reach that point.

I'm really proud of you for doing so well! I know slip ups and stuff can be discouraging. But, it's really great that you've gotten so far, and you are truly beautiful. I wish you could see it! Remember, underweight is sick and healthy is beautiful <3

I think really, the best thing you can do is not weigh yourself (I know, easier said than done) and make sure all of your weights at the doctor are blind weights.

I'm here for you dear.

I know me tooooo. Letting go of ED is scary :/ But I know you can do it. You are such a strong girl.

I'm sorry about the tough time you had earlier :( *hugs* I know it's frustrating. I wish I had more words..

im sorry.. *hugs*
i gained so much wieght when i first was recovering.. i couldnt deal and i relapsed again :(
im here to talk if u need
goodluck!

Use the feelings you have tonight to push you forward. Tomorrow is a new day, and if you have to take things slowly to be realistic and manage able, do that. Just think of one or two things you could do to avoid the slip ups you had today, or decide on one aim, goals have to be focused, measurable and realistic.

Maybe having something for each meal time, or not purging one meal where you previously were..?

Sometimes it helps me to consider what I want in life, and if not possible, identify what I don't want; as you have done here, and both can serve to motivate you away from your dangers towards what is actually going to be productive over all.

Healthy means fulfilled potential, freedom, choice... maybe brainstorm all the things healthy offers, since I know many people trip when they see healthy as something negative, or worse, one single thing. It opens up far more.

I'm getting drugged now with meds, but PM me anytime and I'll do my best to reply xx

You CAN! Go girl!

You can do it, beautiful. You are stronger than you give yourself credit for! Lovelovelove <3

That's great! Now you've done it once it will hopefully make it a tiny bit less daunting next time. xx

You are going round in circles by purging after meals as that can trigger the nausea and feelings of unwellness and therefore you purge again to try and get rid of that feeling which makes you feel nauseous and ill again and so you purge again.

You need to see that for yourself in order for the cycle to be broken.

But by the same token you need to recognise your achievements not just your ''failings'' and try and boost that low self esteem of yours.

Gentle hugs x

Having not read any of the above i would say in regards to categories such as underweight, healthy weight etc they are really not good to focus on, for one bmi can be so inaccurate, it doesnt take into regard anything about that specific person. Try to forget whats considered a "healthy weight" weight etc, because more then likely the label of it is making it more uncomfortable then the weight will be, i think one of the things with anorexia is forgetting how to "feel" and is all about numbers and calculating, for example if i eat i think i look fat, it has nothing to do with how i look rather its psychological, if you can get away from the whole category thing and numbers etc it may help with the want to restrict etc. I know its hard but take it in little steps... and well done im so happy you are fighting this, look at what you have achieved your an inspiration to many of us =)