got 136ed this week for suicidal ideation and now all the professionals are panicking.
 

so basically, i had a steaming argument with my mum on wednesday who is abusive to say the least. she was making violent gestures and it sent me straight into an anxiety attack due to the memories it brought back.
she left for work, i spoke to someone about how i was feeling, they called the police unknown to me.
i was just preparing myself for a lethal overdose, showering, going for a last smoke, about to apply make up, had it all planned out.
then the police turned up, sat with me for 7 hours because they couldn't section me in my own house. they eventually at 5am persuaded me to go to a&e with them after having seen the on-call doctor, social workers and other people on the phone. they were considering getting my mum done for neglect just to get me out of the house (i'm sixteen).
at a&e they sent me to a 136 suite in the nearest psych ward.
i was assessed there and put with the crisis team to get the through the weekend and then have appointments with camhs on monday (cpn) and tuesday (psych).
but i don't understand why everyone is making such a big deal out of it because i'm not sad. i've been numb for many weeks now (following a very bad patch involving a few overdoses and a lot of SHing) but considering that i'm not bad. i don't need their extra support, i am perfectly sane i just don't want to be part of life any more.
i'm just so confused why they're making such a big deal out of it all. :doze:

because your worth making a big deal about..In my thoughts...hugs

I agree.

I've been numb before. Not a good place to be.

completely agree. take ALL the support you can cos in my experience it isn't easy to get... at all. you are worth caring about btw x x x

they are making a big deal because they dont want to let you throw away everything - they want rto help you to get you through so you can surpass the bad stage and realise the potential there is in life
your still young so thay dont want anything to happen to you whiled your life is still getting up and running
they want to give yo ua real fighting chance
try letting them help you
they can take away the numbness if yo ujust give them a chance to fdo so xx
try to let them help
the support would be invaluable xx

Hope your ok, reach out for the help they are offering x x

I agree that you're definitely worth making a big deal about. They're just trying to keep you safe, and are trying to help. I don't think it would be a bad thing to accept the help they're trying to give you.

*hugs* Hope you're ok

you are only 16. You hav your whole life ahead of you. my cousin pressed through the numb period and got on with her life after everyone made a big deal out of her trying to die by slitting her wrists. She still has the scars, but she also has a husband that loves her dearly and 2 daughters that are the most well behaved angels I have ever babysat. She is glad she pressed through because all the happiness she has now was worth the pain and waiting she went through before.

*big hugs* :blush:

I hope you are ok, I am short on words but I know what it's like been numb.
They just want to help you, please take all the help you are giving. Keep fighting it will be worth it in the end I promise hun


<3
thinking of you