Is any one out there? Suicidal thoughts..
 

Is anyone out there?
My family are gone. They dont want anything to do with me since I started SH. They think it's easy to just stop. They think I'm attention seeking.
I'm better off not here! Everyone will be happier without me.
Feels like I'm in a dream/nightmare, doesn't feel real anymore.
Head is all jumbled. Can't think straight!
Want to cut so badly! Want to harm! Want to hurt! I can't do this anymore :'( x

I feel the same way as you do, I want to cut so badly every single day but people are distracting me and it stresses me out and yeah I can't hold on anymore, I'm here if you want to talk.

Ive tried giving them info, i just got told to shut up and stop winging!
I'm really scared. I woke up and it feels like the only way out.
The voices won't go, they are stronger and more powerful than usual.
I don't know what to do I just want it all to end. :'(

Ah, that's not good.
It is not 'the only way out'. You can get through this. Things will get better.
Does anyone know about the voices? Try not to listen to them; they're wrong, and they're just trying to hurt you.

A few people know but he doesn't let me talk about him :( if I do he gets angry and yells at me :( I'm scared :(

He who?
Don't listen to him; please tell someone else what's going on.

He = the voice.
I don't know who else to tell, no one believes me :(

Oh, I see. Well, definately don't listen to him. He's just trying to hurt you.
Is there anyone else you could tell? A doctor or teacher maybe?

i could maybe tell the teacher but i dont see what they will do :S x

Hi, I'm sorry you're feeling like this, but it definitely isn't 'the only way out'. It may not seem like it now, but you'll get through this!

I find telling a teacher about my concerns pretty helpful, and the support they offer me is often more helpful than that from my parents. Sometimes just being able to let someone know can lift a massive weight from you, and you might find that your teacher can offer you advice too.

I can give it a try tomorrow, but what if the teachers just think I'm over reacting like everyone else :( xx

They won't think that. Please try to be honest with them tomorrow, and good luck.

I tried to be honest but I couldn't do it, sorry :( x

Don't be sorry, it's better to do it when you're ready rather than push yourself too much.
Do you think that writing a letter about it could help?

nothing to be sorry for, it isn't easy to talk to people about.

maybe you could write a letter to someone you would trust with such details about yourself.. that way you don't have to speak it? i would write the one i confided in on a daily basis, sometimes multiple pages a day. when she came over and had to read that stack of papers every week it took a while but got my feelings out and kept me safe :)

i definitely wouldnt listen to a voice, i havent met one yet that was helpful in my own experience. if nothing else pace back and forth until youre tired, thats my last resort i have to go to sometimes for a few hours.

can pm me if you need to vent, im a ryl fiend since i stopped ghosting and made an account. give talking to someone another shot if you dont like the writing idea, people wont respond negatively like you feel they will in every case.. and if they do then they arent the one whos going to help ya and move on.

I've been thinkin bout it, i really don't think I'm ready to let people know, I mean, at least this way people don't treat me differently. Sorry.

please don't listen to the voice hun , i am feeling he same i m just wanting to give up . this might feel a bit stupid but do u have anyone who u are close to or special to u ?

i did, but he died back in 2008...
i've got one of my friends who i can talk to about all this and she wants me to talk to her but i just feel mean :S
things have just got a lot lot worse.. my aunty died on friday afternoon and she was actually amazing, i can't believe she's gone im gunna miss her so so so much :'(

*hugs* Is there anyone else you could speak to?