Screwed up
 

I've done something so stupid. It felt right and I wanted to do it but now im sorta back into myself I didnt. I don't know what to do or how to tell my boyfriend because he will find out and it will break his heart. Im so sorry :(

I know how terrible it is to feel that way, but just tell him it isn't his fault, and that S.I is just as hard to kick as any drug addiction. I hope all goes well(: P.M me anytime if you need it, I'm logged in all day, every day.

sometimes being truthful can remove part of the burden. help you feel less bad about it and less scared.

*boing*
Not sure if you'll want me replying here or not... but I couldn't just not reply :-/ So anywho, ignore me if you want :)
Do you want to tell us what you did? Any why?
And I think C is learning that none of our shit is simple- he doesn't fully understand, but he so desperately wants to understand and to help you. I think you should tell him; he will try to understand!

*hugs*

I drank ALOT of alcohol and mixed it some hefty pills. I forced myself to throw most of it up but i still feel ill and i have pain.
i'm not even sure i really wanted to do it. it just seemed like the right thing to do and i wanted to at the time. but then when i sort of snapped out of whatever i was in i didn't want to do it.
i didn't want to hurt anyone. all i want is to be with my boyfriend, where i feel safest.

Oh no! Why didn't you ring me? This makes it a full house this month. :(
You promised you wouldn't do it! :(

Oh *huggles* Be careful. Please, for me?

Do you have any idea what triggered it?
How are you feeling now? Might you need to go to A and E to check that everything's ok?

How are you doing?