i dont know what to do.
 

:crying:i have a freind in currently at hospital waiting for a bed cos of her ED and ive been supporting her heaps. EXCEPT im not ok myself which doesn't really help. i want to hurt myself but im scared that ill cut deep and need stitches.... i cant really control how bad/deep i cut now. Plus i really want to take a small OD aswsell. i can figure the reasons why this is happening cept for having a freind in hosp and my own ED stuff. i know i should call someone- like the psych team but i cant bring myself to do it, and i cant say anything to my friend in hosp cos shes already in a bad place and i dont feel like i can tell any of my other friends cos i dont see them much anymore and i dont want to use them. :crying: please help.

Just take a step back from constantly supporting your friend - she will appreciate everything you have done for her and will understand that you need a bit of time of put yourself first and get your health good again and be in a situation where you are happy. You won't be able to support her if you are feeling like this, so take some time out and look after yourself and make yourself a priority for a well. She will understand, I promise, and she will be thankful for all the help you have given her.

thank you, i cant express how much ur reply meant.
its like an hour since i posted, my friend still is waiting but shes asked me how i was and we've been talking im gonna go down and see her and then see what to do form there. I cant promise to anyone that i wont OD or cut but i can go see her and it may help. *shrugs*

Its hard to fight these urges! Im going through it right now, But just try, look at your friend who is pushing through and needs you and realize that your needed and loved! Try to avoid the thoughts of od'ing and cutting. I know its easier said then done. BUT YOU GOT TO TRY! And sometimes you need to turn to someone and just ask for help. It doesnt have to be a psych, but just a friend. There are people who love and care about you and will help you you just got to let it be known that you need help. I hope i helped at least a little bit.