why is it ...
 

why is it i can have up to 2 weeks clear, then suddenly im at it every day again and my arms are in tatters :/ i dont get it and i wish i did cos its driving me nuts!

did anything trigger it?
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i dont know for sure :/ thats the worst bit. im trying to figure it out, i think im getting there. my head is all over the place trying to think it through, i cant keep my thoughts straight.

part of this pattern could be that self harm is addictive, so one can only go so long before they need the high so to speak.

Very addictive, yes. Sending hugs your way. xxx

I think it is very addictive and thats part of the problem, sometimes i don't know what causes it either. Don't know if your already doing this but my counsellor recommended keeping a little diary just a short intro to say what happened/how it made you feel(or just how your feeling in general if nothing specific has happened)/what you did about it(if you harmed or not)/how you felt afterwards. She said it helps to find out what triggers you have and try and spot them earlier or avoid them altogether.
Although I adapted it slightly and write a little entry every day even if i haven't si'ed because then on the days when i feel ok it's a positive side too and you know you can feel ok when you look back at it.
Hope your doing ok x

CrystalMc, great suggestion. will try it. thanks for the support everyone. gave up trying to figure this instance out, it was doing me no good - my poor brain was getting tied up in knots!!

I do the diary thing. I do it every day though even with no s/h. Costs a bomb in writing books!! Got a hello kitty one at the mo!!!!! xxx

Glad to have helped :) hope your doing ok x