One Good Day
 

I posted this in my journal a few minutes ago. Just gonna stick it here, because I have never had anything to put here today and now I do!

Maybe it's the sunshine, the perfect twelve-degree temperature, the medication, or the way N looked at me today. I feel positive, suddenly. It's been a perfectly normal day and I feel perfectly normal. This morning at work Laura made me a hot chocolate, out of the blue. I appreciated it :-). Sometimes sharing things like that is nice. I walked to the bus stop with a minimum level of panic. I woke up feeling shitty, a bit bleak and lethargic- but it wore off and nothing worse has come of it. Last night we went for drinks and I knew when to stop and I didn't do anything or say anything wrong.

It's been a weird week. I just about recovered from the flu. I admitted that my relationship with food isn't 100% healthy. I had anxious moments/ hours on Wednesday night. I had low moments where nothing seemed fixable, and better moments where things seemed already fixed. And now maybe it is going to be OK.

Things with N are going really well, like maybe we are moving past Before. I really, really want this to work out and in the bleak and unfixable moments that's what I need to hang on to... we're worth it, I think we deserve to be happy.

Iam soooo glad you are having a good day. You've really helped me and you deserve to smile. :-) Let's hope there's many more days like today to enjoy.

Take care
xxx:thumbup:

:) Thanks, that was lovely!
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5 good days in a row!
It is incredible.
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Hey!
I'm so happy for you, it's lovely to hear you are doing so well.
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:-) Thanks mikey!
It's a relief, for sure.

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I am glad you had a good day, i hope you have more happy days..