i think i might have an ED
 

i always struggle with food.
its my enemy, its my friend, most of all my enemy.
i eat because im unhappy and im unhappy because i eat.
i so wish that i could eat less than i do and i develop high anxiety over eating, food, body image, control issues.
i look in the mirror and see a fat slob and promise myself to change my eating habits, but it never happens, then i get extremely mad at myself and anxious about my weight and apperances.
i feel like i have no control in my life and i wish wish wish i could control eating, thats the one thing i can control, but on the other hand i cant.
its not that i dont want to eat, or starve myself i just want to eat significantly less and not feel hungry all the time, or weak, or like i have no energy....
i need help, advice, coaching and self confidence and i have none and i am too ashamed to talk about it with anyone.
do i have an ED?
is stressing constantly about food considered an ED?
blah....... im so confused and stressed......:-(

hun noone here or on any other website can diagnose but simply thinking that it is a concern of yours is grounds to see someone. if your GP isnt someone you want to go to why not try a walk in centre

hello hun.
i dont think we can offer a diagnosis on here, but id advise you to please try and tackle this now. dont wait until it gets so hard to fight.
how about your gp? could you talk to them?
please chat to me anytime. i may not give great advice but will listen and offer any support i can.
take care love and please keep posting.
lots of hugs. xx

thank you everyone *hugs*
i do see a therapist. i will defiantly talk to her about it when i see her this week.
food and eating v.s. not eating is all i think about.
every time i put food in my mouth i freak out.
every time i dont put food in my mouth i cant stop thinking about it.
i just feel like im losing control and i dont know how to mentally or physically handle this at all....

thank you love <3 :)
i just dont feel in control of my lifestyle i guess is the best way i can put it.
that goes for eating habits, exercise, im smoking again kind of and im beating myself up over it. etc but eating and weight have are the main issue and have been ever since high school.
it kills me that i cant get back to the weight i was.
it kills me that i have lost control over eating and it seems like i binge everyday!
tante has suggested a nutritionist, however i did not talk to her about the stressedoutness and control side of it.
the job will help, me being on a sleep schedule will help greatly i just hope im not more prone to want to snack and eat at my new job.....
thank you for your advice auror and everyone! i will def take it to heart and work on this, in the meantime i will keep posting.

<3