Cack
 

Just feel like cack right now, feel like OD'ing which is weird cus i havent done that for years, i normally just cut. I've noticed that when i leave work i always feel depressed, no idea why, i just do, and i have to have toilet breaks just to get some me time away from the shop floor and that fecking **** happy music they play all the time, really loudly, pisses me off big style. All i do is shelf stacking, hardly stressful and its after hours so there are no customers, plus most of teh time im on my own down an aisle doing a roll cage, so im trying to figure out why im feeling the way i do. Wana cry but cant cry, body wont let me :(

Sometimes we can feel depressed for no reason. Are you happy with your job? Is something going on outside of work that is stressful?

Thanks. I'm just not happy in life, worried about the future and everyday life, the job is okay, its not what i want to be doing, but then i have no idea what i want to be doing, i feel like my life is going nowhere, tried lots of times to change it, my first job in 5 years, been there 8 weeks and old habits are creeping back in, ive cut at work twice, i dunno i just feel blahhhhhh and urghhhh. Thanks for reply

i totally understand about the worry for the future. It's scary not knowing whats ahead. Do you have anything that you LOVE doing? Sometimes when I get really depressed I draw or take a walk and photograph things :P Have anything like that you could do to cheer you up even a little?

Not really, i love drinking tea, im drinking it now but still feel crap. I like wave watching but theres no wind for waves :( just wanna hide from the world and cry and cut. Sorry. Probably have another cup of tea and go bed, but i dont think il be able to sleep.