Support for Banarama!
 

Cat is having a very difficult time at the moment.
She did make a thread herself, but she felt she didnt deserve the support.
So I am making one for her.
She is really struggling a lot at the moment, self harming everyday quite badly, and she has taken several overdoses.
She is in a very fragile state.
and could use plenty of loving cuddles and supprotive words right now.

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I love you sweetie. Keep fighting.
You have so much ahead of you.
I know things seem like the end of the world right now.
But you can do this.
I believe in you.
Love you
Stay strong
and Im always here for you
xxxxxxxxxxx

:hearti know that i have never talked to you before
but id like to know you
hold on please hold on

Ella

:crying:

im scared i dont no what to do

the crisis team told me to ring them but i dont no

:crying:

i have bad thoughts i dont no what to do :pinch:

help?

Maybe you should ring them even if its just to see how they can help you

hugs

im here if u wnt to tlk

I think you should ring them as well :)
Why are you feeling so bad tonight?
And you do deserve support.

Rawr :) I loves you cat !
Hope your ok :)
Love your big dinosaur :)
Mikies :)

Ohh and another thing
*snugglesaurus rex*

You deserve all the support in the world
you can count on me
whenever you wanna talk, I am here...feel free to PM me if you want
*hugs*

ok that was scary i rang them but i dunno if it helped r not

i tried to tell him that i wasnt feeling very good told him that i had thoughts of oding.

he kept going on about distracting myself trying to whind down get some sleep, but i am wide awake looks like im going to have another sleepless night.

:pinch: i still really wanna hurt myself

he said i could ring back but i dunno :pinch:

hun.. im so proud of you for ringing both times.
ur such an amazing person, and you do deserve all the happiness in the world.

you know im always here for ya.
lyl, keep going strong babes
xxxxx xxxxx xxxxxxx

Love you so much xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

should i ring them im scared
i want to od :/
i want to hurt myself
my arms r doing my head in
im not sleepy yet again 3rd night in a row

ahh :crying:

Well done for ringing - that's the hardest part. I know I don't know you but I've been having similar struggles recently. Just HOLD ON. You know this wave will pass. You're a fighter, and you're immensely brave for calling - something I never could. The person on the end of the phone is there for YOU.

For sleep I use 'mindfulness' technique. Try (i know it's never easy) to get comfy in bed and just clear your mind and focus on your breathing. Don't get mad if you can't do it at first, but just keep trying to focus on breathing steadily in and out.

Good luck hun xXx

OMG IM SUCH AN IDIOT

i aint been sleeping very well at nights had an appointment for 6.30 with the doctors. but i slept through it :crying:

i really needed to talk to him about everything. about not sleeping about constantly wanting to overdose and i still do i want to right this minute :crying:

Hunnie

Im here for you - Im here for you all night and day.

But please if you have any tablets near you right now, put them away, hide them in a draw or something.

You need to hide the temptation.

You need to do something to keep your mind busy.

I know when your feeling suicidal that is the last thing you want to do, but you need to try!

Think about the nursing course you want to do, you wont be able to do it, if you succeed in killing yourself. I know you really want to be a nurse!

Can you call the crisis team? They are there for you.

XXXX

:crying:

Don't have many words .. Hugs hunni just hang in there


Not sure if this is my place to say but cat is on her way to hospital she has cut and taken an od so she really needs us all behind her right now please

Cat, you are so so amazing, I wish you could see it for yourself!! I admire you so much for managing to go this long, and I know how much your strugging, but I know you can get through all of this!!!! I hope so much that you can make a turning point as soon as your out the hospital tonight as you ARE going to be fine, and you WILL get over this! People do care about you hun, look at all the replies on here, even if the drs dnt look like they care, they do, but we care so so much and we all hate seeing you like this as we know you are just fantastic. You need to let the real you back out into the big wide world and kick this shitty person that has taken over you in the ass!!!!
I love you so so much sis,
*huggle bug* x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x

thanks for all the replies, never got home til 5am and eventually got some sleep.

not feeling that great to be honest, didnt get seeing the crisis team or anything just a stupid doctor. he just said oh use distractions and ring the crisis team if u need to :pinch:

i have tried that over and over again :/ and its not working :crying:

dunno what to do anymore. going home tomorrow hopefuly that will be ok though i wont have anyone to talk to about all this, no counsellor or any of the support that i have had whilst im here in england :pinch: so am a bit scared about all that.

You have done so so well! Be comforted by the strength you have shown to come on here, and to continue fighting! It sucks that the doctor wasnt much help, but at least you went. Did you speak to the doctor about not sleeping? cause that always makes things worse and you deserve a good nights sleep!

You might not be able to see anyone else irl, but everyone is here for you, in a way that can be just as beneficial as your crisis team.
I hope you are ok.