Do you ever regrett starting SH?
 

After being very honest tonight to a lad I like.

Do you ever regret starting SH?

In my oppinion no. Its got me the best mates i can ever wish for on this site and me and my dad have got alot closer because of it.

Yes i sometimes wish i never got the scars i have or the urges but no i don't entirely regret it

I wish I'd never started. If only I'd never done it that first time I think the urges wouldn't be as hard to fight.

I wish I'd never seen my friend SH. She's the one that made me start, the one who continues to make me do it.
She's haunting me.

I wish I'd never met her.

cuddles olivia

yes i do sometimes regret it......but i dont think i would have ever met the person i met though this site if it werent for sh so in a way i dont fully regreat starting sh.

I don't know. Sometimes I do.

Everyday i think "if i hadnt done this maybe id never have started" or "if i didnt know this person maybe id be ok"
in a lot of ways i do regret it a lot, but i think ive met some amazing people because of it, and gotten closer to someone
as a whole though, i do regret i think...

I don't regret starting, but I do wish I had been more honest from the beginning and hadn't let myself get so bad.
Everything happens for a reason though, even the crappy things can lead to something great!

I did when I first started...I wished I could just pretend it had never happened...but now...I dont't know...if I could get rid of it from my pas I don't think I would however strange that sounds.

i dont regret starting but i do regret meeting my 1st boyfriend and having him break up with me in school at the age of 7 was wht started it

No but then I have self harmed for as long as I remember and your past makes your future and if i hadnt then I wouldnt have met some of the wonderful people I have

I regret it. All the time.

i agree with you miss pixie, i wouldnt have met laura aka xlollyx or liz or jenni or mark or even scott and helena

Strangely enough I don't regret starting...I may get in trouble for saying this but its got me through stuff and stopped me doing stuff that would screw other people over. Its far from a good thing but it is part of my life.

I do regret the lies its forced me to tell and the shame.

No, I don't. I was all alone before I started to SH, now I have friends who support me and help me through the bad times. I love RYL. And in a way, I am glad I started SH'ing because I found RYL in a desperate search for support about my depression and now I'm two months free.

=)

Yes, no, maybe and all of the above. I gain and I lose from it. I wish I could have my arms back but only so I could start a fresh and cut fresh flesh. I need it, I want it, but feel it controls me, I have no control over it.

At times i do. In a way i dont. It is me, my life, my child hood and adolescence. Its made me who i am. I like the scars in a wierd way. I can tell you what they were from and why. Ive wrote my book on my skin.

BUT.

I feel like a freak. Im not normal. I see the funny looks i sometimes get. i feel self concious.

But no. I dont REGRET it. I live with it. It is me whether i like it or not

No i don't think i do because if i hadn't started when i did i think the outcome would of been a lot worse and i'm not sure if i'd be here today..i needed an instant release. I wish i'd never hurt the people i care about and i wish i hadn't got addicted but at the time i think it was weirdly the right thing for me to do and i wouldn't be who i am today without it. I guess it also showed me which friends i could always rely on. That's just how it is for me anyway
xXx

Yes I do. Then I'd never have to try stopping or whatever.

I think it was always going to happen though. Even before the 'cutting' started I was subconsciously self-harming from about 14/15.

But I wish I'd never started. Because then it wouldn't have progressed and I wouldn't be addicted and maybe I'd have managed to channel my feelings into something more positive or productive. Also, without the scars I'd be without the constant reminders of my uselessness.

For me it depends on the day. Some days it is all i can do to calm myself down with. Although most of the time i wish i had never started it. There is just to much negative for me that comes along with it. Plus the whole dealing with it plus whatever i was running from. So it just seems to complicate things. And of course i hate the scars that will for the time being remind me of my flaws.

yeah sometimes i do, just so it wouldn't of gotten so bad, to not see the pain in the people i love because of it, it not have to hide myself every day.

but if i could change it, i wouldn't, i have become so close with my parents and my friends, sure i would change the depression and the suicidal part, but no i don't wish i hadn't started.

Yes and No. There are parts that come with Self Harm that I regret, like the scars, the friendships I lost, and the trust I lost, but on the flip side of this is the fact that I have become who I am through my self harm. I can understand what other are going through and hopr to use that to help other one day, becuase of my self harm I have a testimony to tell that can really influence people when it come to God.

So when it come sown to it, no I dont regret it.

Yes, I regret starting self harm. It's only now that I want my life back that I realise I regret it, before I didn't. I regret starting self harming because of the scars, how much its hurt everyone, the friendships I have lost and the whole three years wasted in and out of hospital. It's mostly the scars though because these mean I'm unlikely to ever be able to do the job I want to do. I feel like if I'd never started self harming things might not have got so out of control.

Having said all that, I have met some amazing people through being in hospital and I love them to pieces, I wouldn't give them up as friends so maybe that is one silver lining there.

I guess I have to get used to the fact that I did self harm and nothing can change that so I try to focus on the relationships I have made.

x

Every single day.

I used to but not anymore, don't see the point in regret.
Sometimes it's difficult to regret things but like you I'm able to see the good I've got out of things I'd other wise regret.

Looking back in hindsight with regret is an awful headspace to be at.

I regret it every day.
It's as if the scars of what I've done in the past give me an excuse to keep going, and I hate that.

I honestly don't know if I regret it or not. I've told a couple friends but have been left with no support system. What I would really regret is if my family found out because I don't want to hurt them.

I'm really not sure. I've never thought about it that much really. There are reasons why I wish I had never started, but I don't know that I regret it.

Right! In the past few days I took part in a thread about undoing everything, the whole package. By that I mean SI/ED/OD/PTSD etc and I said no I would not undo it because I am who I am and where I am now because of it.

BUT I do wish that I hadnt started cutting. I did my first cut in a ED unit when I was a IP there and my keyworker said to me 'now you have started you will never stop'. I mean, how bloody helpful is that!!

And yes I am still doing it and its wrecked my life BUT it has also kept me alive, sane, soothed etc. Do you guys understand? Its like two sides to a coin.

fragile as glass, I understand what you mean I think. SIing is my only release from my emotional pain since I don't have anyone to talk to off of RYL.

yes and no. I regret the scars I have. I regret looking at that and realising the pain the past has caused, and that inflicted that pain on myself. But in all honesty, if that wasnt my coping mechanism I dont think I'd be alive...

I don't know sometimes I do. I regret ever starting because i've become so dependant on SI. I regret lying to friends and family about scars and covering up scars. There are also the scars which i geuss will be there for the rest of my life constantly reminding me about SI.

On the flip side without SI i would never have found this site and met amazing friends through here. I've been SI'ing for a long time now and its helped me cope with things and its almost become a part of me.

I regret it. A lot. But i sometimes i don't think i regret it enough. And that's why i find it so hard to stop.
=s

I absolutely regret it. In my opinion, it's what caused all my other problems.

I regret it. But at the time I didn't even understand what I was doing.

I don't know. It's kept me from doing much worse things (kept me alive really) but I hate the scars so... :/

I wish I never felt the way that leads me to SH. The cuts are 'just' the result of the way I feel.

I'm not sure how I feel about it. It's been a part of my life for a long time, sometimes I think ''If I hadn't harmed that first time, then I wouldn't depend on it so much for coping, wouldn't have so many scars, would have learnt healthier ways of dealing with stuff''...etc.
But I guess it does have it's purpose, in some weird, fucked up way. I think I'd have snapped a long time ago, if I did not have that coping mechanism.

Makes me wonder how I'd be now, if I'd never got depression or started SI'ing.

I wish I'd never started. I can't even remember why I did.But if I'm honest it's probably stopped me doing a lot worse by giving me a release for my feelings before they got too intense, so maybe it's not all bad? I don't know.

I wish I'd never started. It just feels so uncontrollable sometimes. And I think it really disappointed my parents who even 6 years after they found out still think of me differently. it sux lol.

Every goddamn day.

I wish i would never have started i regret it all the time. I hate the way it takes over my life the way i think and act. I now have to put up with the fact that i may be cutting for the rest of my life everytime i get upset or mad it sucks!

Yes and no.
I hate the scars and the looks I get every day and the need to explain each and every scar I have away.
But I love how much I've grown as a person due to SI. I understand a lot of things more and I'm far more interested in mental health now than I would've been if I had never self harmed.

No because if it wasn't for self harm who knows I might be dead. I think self harm has saved me from attempting to take my life. I also think doing the things I have done to myself has made me more understanding and less judgmental to people. I also wouldn't have the insight that I do to self harm which will help when I make it though college to be a psychologist.

Yes and no. Sure, I hate the scars and the feelings of "actually i really like that top but I can't wear it today because I've got cuts on my arms", but actually, self harm has done a lot for me. When things were/are really really bad it is/was the only thing that could get me through alive. It's given me a huge insight into the muddled ways that we as humans learn to survive in our environments and made me realise that actually no-one is completely risk free of suicidal/delf harming behaviours (I used to have a really stereotypical view that it was only emos who self harmed). It has also helped to make my friendship with my best mate stronger in its own way, and without her I don't know where I'd be.

So no, I actually don't regret starting SI, I only regret how long I have let it go on for and how little I could be bothered to try to control it.

Self harm is what keeps me ticking over.
Without it, I'm a wreck. I'm suicidal, too depressed to get out of bed, a complete mess. I don't regret starting because I've yet to find a coping mechanism that works aswell.

tbh- i wish i'd never started but i dnt think i wld have been able to cope otherwise...so not entirely no.