Cmht

[star runner]

I'm in such a mess I really don't know where to start. I suppose I am looking for advice or somebody who can say that they too have felt like this.
I have been under the same Psychiatrist and cmht for many years. In that time things have fallen apart for me. I am often sectioned and in and out of hospital. Right now things are terrible - i am completely isolated, very depressed and in a very dark place and feel that things will always keep getting worse (as they always have).
My cpn has very strong opinions about me and she thinks I have a personality disorder (she has written this in reports rather than told me) but my psych has previously denied this.
Because of the way they are with me I really feel like they both take everything I say or do in such a negative light. They don't listen to me and It feels so unfair. I feel like they are turning everyone against me (I can't explain this further, i just do)
I am at the point where I do not trust either of them and feel very attacked. I partly think that I would be best to get discharged but then I am frightened of what will happen if I find i do need some support in the future.
Has anybody else felt like this or been in a similar situation?

[one_step_closer]

I'm sorry you're feeling like this. It's important to have people involved in your treatment who you can trust and feel respected by. Have you ever considered contacting an advocate? They might be able to help you get your points across and perhaps a second opinion or a change of treatment team if it comes to that.