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stumpy
03-11-2014, 10:00 PM
I've been feeling very manic recently, when I get manic I feel a sudden aggression but try my hardest to divert my attention with things that will distract me, I get angry & emotional at myself, I get so triggered that I feel like cutting myself, despite not having cut for well over a year & a half.

One of the things I did as a feel good distraction was cut off my long hair that I was able to sit on because of it's length, with hair clippers, a number zero, no comb on the clippers.

Another thing I like to do is go out & shop, spend money, but I really can't afford it, it's difficult to explain the things I buy, their just things like art supplies & general household items that look nice, to try to make a relaxing environment, lava lamps etc.

Today I went to my GP because I'm struggling with these manic feelings & asked if he'd make me a new referral to the local CMHT but he refused, so I've been left feeling alone with these feelings, I was just wondering if there is anything I can do to get some more support, as my GP seems to have given up on me, I was discharged from the CMHT last year, as they felt I no longer needed their services.

Who do I speak with now? the co-ordinator at Mind? welfare rights? it's always a difficult decision, where mental health rights/discrimination come in to things, I believe that the GP is breaking the law by refusing to make a referral to the CMHT.

Has anyone else come up against this? if so what's the best thing I can do to try to move forward?

tiptoes
07-11-2014, 06:08 PM
I'm sorry you haven't had a reply to this sooner. It has been a few days how are you doing?

I'm sorry that your GP didn't take you seriously, are there any other GP's at your surgery that you could see instead?

What usually helps when you are manic?

stumpy
11-11-2014, 12:05 AM
I'm worse now than I have been in a long time, I did something really stupid, that I regret, I have made a post about it in the Substance abuse section, I won't go into more detail here, but things are really bad at the minute, I tried to use stimulants to calm myself & feel better about myself, but it didn't go to plan :-(