Been a long time.

[Diamonds.]

Hi guys,

It's been a long time since I've logged onto RYL. I kind of think I can cope without help, and deep down I can't.

My mental health seems to be going down the pan. I went to my doctor a couple of days ago and he said "Rebecca, you have Major Depression and a Mood Disorder".
I don't even know what he means by a mood disorder. He said it's not Bipolar, as I am more depressed then happy, but I have little (very little) happy moments.

I seem to be sleeping a lot more lately, like I wake up during the night and stuff, but I could sleep 10pm-1pm, over 12 hours and I still can be tired, no matter how little or much sleep I get. I have no energy for **** all.
I mean I kind of have to have energy for my OCD. I seem to be doing that a lot more lately too. I clean my flat 3-4 times a week (more on a bad week). I'm scared of germs, mess, and dirt. I hate it! It kind of takes over me.

I hardly go out these days, my Anxiety is too high. I also see my damn abusers too! Always.

I just need some rest.
Sorry for the rant :(

[stumpy]

We sound similar with the mood disorder thing, I'm often more depressed although recently I've gone to having extreme mood changes so I guess ur not alone, people often ask me if I'm Bipolar but I've never had a diagnosis.

Just sounds to me like their trying to avoid giving a definite diagnosis hope u manage to feel a little better soon, I don't have OCD like the cleaning but I do have to have a routine like seeing my support workers on a certain day & if they try to change my routine I get angry.

Good luck with ur moods, hope u manage to get some better stability with them than me x :)