jessye
05-05-2011, 03:18 AM
So last Autumn I had a breakdown and was diagnosed with BPD by the Crisis Team psychiatrist. I worked with the Crisis Team for 3 weeks until I was well enough to get back to work and was in the care of the CMHT. Since then I have had hardly any support whatsoever.
I firstly saw a CPN who had absolutely no knowledge of the condition or any suggestions about how I can keep myself well and avoid further crises while I am waiting for DBT. I was then palmed off onto a social worker who said he was going to help me with some DBT techniques to help me cope with things better. These I found completely useless as they were in 45 minute sessions 2/3 weeks apart and he clearly had no real training in it as he spent most of the session flicking through notes. Also I have still not had a new patient's appointment with the team's psychiatrist which I was supposed to have last October!! And I discovered at my last session that I hadn't even been put on the sodding DBT waiting list (which is 18 months long incidentally) as I have to have my diagnosis confirmed by this psychiatrist.
Since my last session with this social worker guy I had an accident and couldn't see him for a few weeks. Since then I have been too frustrated with the whole situation to call the CMHT and make another appointment. And I am so fed up of ringing up and pestering the poor receptionists about it. It has now been about 6 weeks since I saw this guy and he hasn't been in touch to schedule an appointment and I still haven't heard anything about the psychiatrist's appointment.
I know that I have to pick up the phone and try to make an appointment and push for some kind of treatment or frequent sessions with a CPN or something and I especially need to kick up a fuss about still not having seen the psychiatrist but I'm so scared and embarassed. I hate fighting my way through this system. I hate having to confront my mental health problems. But I know that if I don't I won't have the support in place to prevent me from having another crisis. I can't keep self harming as a way of coping and all the other symptoms are destroying all my relationships. What is more I don't know what I'm going to say when if I do see this guy. I just freeze up and can't explain what I need support with.
Grr. Can I please get some encouragement and advice to help with picking up the phone and pushing for some kind of treatment?
I firstly saw a CPN who had absolutely no knowledge of the condition or any suggestions about how I can keep myself well and avoid further crises while I am waiting for DBT. I was then palmed off onto a social worker who said he was going to help me with some DBT techniques to help me cope with things better. These I found completely useless as they were in 45 minute sessions 2/3 weeks apart and he clearly had no real training in it as he spent most of the session flicking through notes. Also I have still not had a new patient's appointment with the team's psychiatrist which I was supposed to have last October!! And I discovered at my last session that I hadn't even been put on the sodding DBT waiting list (which is 18 months long incidentally) as I have to have my diagnosis confirmed by this psychiatrist.
Since my last session with this social worker guy I had an accident and couldn't see him for a few weeks. Since then I have been too frustrated with the whole situation to call the CMHT and make another appointment. And I am so fed up of ringing up and pestering the poor receptionists about it. It has now been about 6 weeks since I saw this guy and he hasn't been in touch to schedule an appointment and I still haven't heard anything about the psychiatrist's appointment.
I know that I have to pick up the phone and try to make an appointment and push for some kind of treatment or frequent sessions with a CPN or something and I especially need to kick up a fuss about still not having seen the psychiatrist but I'm so scared and embarassed. I hate fighting my way through this system. I hate having to confront my mental health problems. But I know that if I don't I won't have the support in place to prevent me from having another crisis. I can't keep self harming as a way of coping and all the other symptoms are destroying all my relationships. What is more I don't know what I'm going to say when if I do see this guy. I just freeze up and can't explain what I need support with.
Grr. Can I please get some encouragement and advice to help with picking up the phone and pushing for some kind of treatment?