So scared and petrified and stressed. Help quick!

[LuvableLyssie]

Please I just don't know what to do with myself. I'm seeing my cpn at 2 o'clock. I'm so stressed it's unreal. I know that things are getting on top of me really badly. Just some hugs or words of comfort would be good as I really need to calm down. And I have a stupid MRI today and I can't even cancel because it's privately that I'm having it! Arrrrrgghhhhh! I feel sick and got a headache just need to cut. :crying:

[Steel Maiden]

Big hugs. Do you have any PRN that you can take? I think you should make a list of things that you want to say to your CPN

[flutterby butterfly]

Hope it goes well with your CPN. Can you just take a timeout for a few minutes & do something relaxing? like play an online game, or have a relaxing bath? Write a page about a day you really enjoyed? Sorry if that sounds patronising just trying to think of ways to help *hugs*

[LuvableLyssie]

Thank you so much. You're not patronising at all. I cut :-( fail! I am going to have a little sleep to maybe settle me a bit more. Hugs xx

[one_step_closer]

How did it go with your CPN?

[LuvableLyssie]

Hiya,

*major SI TRIG coming up*

I saw my CPN yesterday and it was a hard appointment so I had to go to an MRI afterwards and I ended up swallowing a blade instead and 4 Xrays later at a+e they couldn't find it so sent me home. I had also cut in the morning.

Today is a fail day because I have urinary problems and self catheterise so I wet myself today too. Gutted!

I wanna cut more but can't because I'm at my mums and she'll find out! Gah...xxx

[LuvableLyssie]

Plus I'm seeing my psych tomorrow so am petrified, even though he's a lovely Dr I still get scared and my legs are killing me because they're trembling so much! Argh xx

[ThinkingofRecovery]

Aww, hun. I hope it goes ok tomorrow. Could you have a bath to relax and maybe help soothe your legs?

[LuvableLyssie]

I think I'm gonna try and sit in the bath or go to my bed and come online there so I'm more comfy if you see what I mean... Argh I have to squeeze them together to stop them being so jittery, it's killing my back! I'll be back on in a bit xx

[Stellata]

What are you scared of?

This may not help you, but when I'm shaking, my therapist encourages me to allow it. I'm usually lying on my back at the time, which helps.

[ThinkingofRecovery]

Yeah, allowing it can take away the tension and muscle soreness

[LuvableLyssie]

Thanks guys so much, I'm so scared about the appointment it's at 4 o'clock... I'll be back in a bit to talk I'm going to my mums work with her, :-( x

[Steel Maiden]

How did the appt go? Sorry for the late reply, I was on holiday