The Way Things Are *help me* **updated**
 

We have run out of money. Literally. And almost run out of food. The landlord is coming round some time this week to check the house and tell me if I can stay till August. If not I'll have to leave in less than 2 weeks.

I have a dissertation meeting in an hour. I'll have to walk there. I can't cancel because my email won't work. I haven't even showered and can't eat. I got so close to slashing my wrists just now.

I don't know what to do...

Just try and do one thing, try and foget about the others and just achieve one thing at a time, otherwise you'll just keep getting ovewhelmed and that's a very scarey thing.

Hope stuff goes ok.

Would now be a time to phone you parents and ask for some help?

thats a whole lot hunni. try to call someone to help you if you can. i honestly dont know what else to suggest. just hold on.
much love.
xx

Hun I don't know what to say... Is there someone you can ask for help? I want to echo, just take it one thing at a time...
Take care of yourself.
Alyssa

nothing else to add from what has been said...jsut wanted to add some more support.
And to say pls think of Nat's idea..it sounds a good one; not an easy one im sure...but the only one perhaps?
Please let us know what happens ok?
Will be thinking of you
luv
romp

*update*
 

Thanks guys :) That really helped me. I did go to my dissertation meeting, it took 40 minutes to walk there. Good exercise though! On the money side of things, we are still very poor but managed to get a little bit from the job centre finally, and will get it every week. It's only £20, which is peanuts, but we have a bit of food now. Neil, the landlord, is coming round tomorrow so I will know then if I'm getting to stay or not. I have so much on my mind and am soooo worried about everything but I have so much ****ing strength in me it is unbelievable. I will not be beaten by this.

In other news, I'm 1 month SI free today. I had such an urge this morning but I resisted it. I'm proud of myself.

im so very proud of you!!!!!
much love.
xx