The deeper the cut
 

Lately it seems like the deeper I cut the more pain is released. I like cutting I want to stop but it lets me get out anger and depression I cant get out anywhere else. I have this one cut that didn't stop bleeding for at least 20 mins. I truly don't know how to stop. Is anyone there? Does anyone actually see my posts? Please help, I truly don't want to hurt anymore but im stuck.

I have no words just now. The only thing I can suggest is to try reaching out for help, with friends or someone you trust. Start trying to do things that will distract you, I find writing helps release things when I'm feeling low, but for you it might be music or drawing.. You just need to experiment and find what outlet helps. Are you seeing any one professionally atm?

Yeah I am, im on medicine and everything. Talking has sometimes helped but once I leave the office it starts all over again.

This is the problem a lot of people have with self harm. For some reason, to get the same effect and reduction in distress, people often feel they have to self harm more severely over time. This can cause huge, huge problems - I have known people who have ended up very seriously injured or close to death as a result of this.

I'm glad that talking helps a bit. Depression and difficult feelings are horrible, but can often be helped by talking to trusted people, taking prescribed medication, getting good exercise and good nutrition, spending time with friends, being creative etc. Keep fighting.