my life

I grew up watching my older brother abuse his wife, whom lived with us. He was always arguing, yelling, he always seemed mad and he couldn't control himself. It tears and still tears my family apart. I felt and sill feel like i cant talk to anyone, like i have nobody. Also when i was younger my older cousin came into my room asking me to touch him. He still hangs around my family which i admit make me very uncomfortable.I also always feel very depressed . I don't know when my SI started, but don't really know what to do about it. I feel like i cant tell anyone and i just don't know what to do anymore.