...but I have somuch going on right now that im having trouble coping with.
Could i please just have some hugs and comfort.
Sorry, i really hate asking..but I feel so alone. xx
Last edited by ~Grace~ : 02-07-2009 at 08:11 PM.
Reason: unsure...
you're finally getting to "you" beneath all the problems. i think rowie has kinda been swept away with all that's been happening, this is a good move, sorta standing up and going 'hello i'm still here', when everything seems centered on sorting your problems, finally you're realising "you" need some help too.
i love you so much hun, maybe we can get "you" hugged up enough to be able to work through some of your problems - remember baby steps - and still be cuddled enough to feel the positivity from it all.
love u mand x
Mand, South Wales, Full-time working, single mother to 2 scarily independent girls.
I AM A PROUD PLUMERIA SISTER
so, tomorrow i have another works meeting. i have to walk into that store knowing that i will be stared at and watched. i know i will have difficult questions to answer. i know i will have to be guarded as to what i say. im not sure if they would have contacted my doctor yet following the last meeting or whether he would have had time to reply to their requests on my health. i dont want to lose my job, but am i fit enough to return and spend 4 hours on my feet when i can barely do anything at home....i just dont know what to do or say to them. im so scared.
i also have a doctors appointment tomorrow. i havent seen him for almost a month. thing is, another doctor at the same surgery wants to see me about my anaemia...he asked when my hubby rang re my prescription. im scared of what theyve got planned. i wont do anything about it and they cant force me can they?
crap day tomorrow
im not seeing my therapist today due to things happeneing at home, but next week she feels that its time we started talking about my past issues. she firmly believes that these are holding me in the place where im at. but ive already spoken of these to my previous therapist. i really dont want to talk about them and about what happened. im scared i will break down and cry. i just cant do that, mustnt cry.
crying is the soul's way of cleansing itself. this therapist seems good, trust her in her judgement, maybe she can help you more once you've talked, maybe she thinks it will help you, trust her because things can't really get much worse. mand x
Mand, South Wales, Full-time working, single mother to 2 scarily independent girls.
I AM A PROUD PLUMERIA SISTER
my doctors appointment didnt go too well
they had the recent levels of my blood count and it still is extremely low
my body...or my heart to be precise is overcompensating and it is tachycardic and my blood pressure is low. my hubby was called into the appoinment and was told what was happening and to ring 999 if i become unconscious.
i just dont understand all of this. yes i get breathless and tired and yes my complexion is pale...but i am fine
its like it is happening to someone else and not me. when he was talking to me it was like he was talking to someone over my shoulder and that it wasnt aimed at me
im just dont understand, but then i must because i go out of my way not to eat bread, cereal or broccoli as it has iron in it....i dont have the control
i've pm'd you but feel the need to re-iterate. wiki says that tachycardia if it persists can lead to a heart attack. you need more oxygen so your heart beats faster, in itself requiring more oxygen, it's a never ending cycle, you either get treatment or have a heart attack.
i'd recommend treatment, i've heard the after effects of chest compressions and defibrilation can be rather painful.
mand x
Mand, South Wales, Full-time working, single mother to 2 scarily independent girls.
I AM A PROUD PLUMERIA SISTER
