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13-02-2009, 10:03 AM
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A flower for beauty....A heart for love....
Join Date: Jan 2009
Location: losing myself with no trace of home
I am currently:  
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Triggering (SI) - I'm so f**king stupid sometimes
They are going to see it all and that scares me so much.
Why did i have to be so stupid and aloow myself to fall as far as i did.
I wish i could hid away and pretend i'm not really here today.
The thought of him spotting the cuts is physically making me want to puke but i know i can't as there's nothing in there to come up.
I really want to gash away at myself, draw little pictures in the blood on my legs but i can't.
An hour's time and he'll be here and i can't tell him nope not gonna happen i'm staying in today. I can't dissapoint people, we planned this to long ago for me to pull out now.
Why do i have to be so f**king weak.
I hate myself for it.
Stupid stupid stupid
All thats in my head is cutting and even writting this isn't getting it out of my stupid head.
Just want to go deeper and deeper again.
To see my blood pour everywhere.
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littlewhisper, my guardian angel. I-Love-You XxX little_miss, such an amazing friend. LoveYou XxX
I hate it, I don't want it, I don't need it, I never want to see it, You can take it, You can break it.
Mummy to my gorgeous wolf cub - 30/10/2013. Our little fighter at 3 weeks early and a tiny 4lbs 14oz.
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14-02-2009, 01:04 AM
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Join Date: Oct 2007
Location: Lost
I am currently: 
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Hun i hope yesterday went well for you. your not weak its just slips now and again im here if you want to talk luv jad
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Don't walk behine me I might got you lost!
Don't walk in front of me I may not follow you!
Don't walk beside me the path is to small!
All we can do is walk our own paths,remember your not alone because we are all walking our own paths together!
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14-02-2009, 08:54 AM
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A flower for beauty....A heart for love....
Join Date: Jan 2009
Location: losing myself with no trace of home
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It went ok yesterday. Felt like complete **** when i got home and just wanted to cry all night long and slash myself silly.
My mother is coming over today to tell me how f**king perfect her life is when she's the silly one who made me like this.
If she had just been more like a f**king mother like she was meant to be maybe just maybe i would have turned out normal.
But no instead she put all her effort into screwing me up and leaving me to nearly f**king die.
Screw you
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littlewhisper, my guardian angel. I-Love-You XxX little_miss, such an amazing friend. LoveYou XxX
I hate it, I don't want it, I don't need it, I never want to see it, You can take it, You can break it.
Mummy to my gorgeous wolf cub - 30/10/2013. Our little fighter at 3 weeks early and a tiny 4lbs 14oz.
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14-02-2009, 10:23 PM
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Sarah
Join Date: Feb 2009
Location: Im not really sure where i am...all i know is im still here
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HUG HUG HUG..i dont know what to say except il always be here for you PROMISE!!!! xx
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Dragonfly-my guardian angel
Except for a few small bruises, cuts and scars..well i'm fine...
Feel free to PM me...i'l always be here for anyone who needs someone to talk to. promise xxx <3
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14-02-2009, 10:45 PM
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Join Date: Jun 2007
Location: North Yorkshire
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*hugs*
I can understand what you're saying about your mother.
Are you getting any support for everything going on for you?
x
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See I cannot feel this, not matter how you try and in the real world, there's no goodbyes.
Stare at the hands, you know you want to ;).
"memento vivere"
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15-02-2009, 10:50 AM
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A flower for beauty....A heart for love....
Join Date: Jan 2009
Location: losing myself with no trace of home
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Thank you sarah, i know you'll alway be there when i need you just as i will always be there for you. *Love*
On Thursday i am starting cognative therapy but they are doing that one to change how i see myself so it's not going to really help me with the decisions my mother made when i was younger.
I suspose i just gotta see how it goes really.
Hugs to you all
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littlewhisper, my guardian angel. I-Love-You XxX little_miss, such an amazing friend. LoveYou XxX
I hate it, I don't want it, I don't need it, I never want to see it, You can take it, You can break it.
Mummy to my gorgeous wolf cub - 30/10/2013. Our little fighter at 3 weeks early and a tiny 4lbs 14oz.
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