Just a moan

Ragdoll · 02-01-2009, 01:02 AM

My back hurts.
Seeing doc tomorrow, gonna be referred for an xray to see why it hurts.
Tired.
Feeling on the verge of withdrawing into myself.
If I do, I'll harm, I always do when I'm like that.
Woo, happy new year.
Should be more grateful.
Am grateful for Rusty and Harlan.
Dont feel wanted at parent and baby unit anymore.
Havent got my safe place at the unit anymore.

ravynsoul · 02-01-2009, 01:32 AM

*offers hugs*
I hope things go well with your doctor appointment soon and that they can clear that up and that your back feels better!

Do you think the tiredness/withdrawing is related to the back and maybe getting that sorted out will help?

Rain Keeper · 02-01-2009, 01:33 AM

*hugs* honey... its hard... but you just keep on..dont withdraw yourself...involve yourself.

Rain

MammaMia · 02-01-2009, 06:30 AM

I'm sorry your back is causing you pain hun. I hope the xray helps in pinpointing what the problem is. It's possible tiredness is possible aggravating the problem aswell. But I know it's hard to get the right amount of sleep and stuff with a new baby. Is there anything you could do or Rusty to help you not withdraw into yourself hun? You say you should be more greatful? Why do you think that hun? Is there any reason why you don't feel wanted at the parent & baby unit or have a safe place there? I'm sure you are very muchly wanted there and maybe they're just going through a busy phase right now with new years and having just passed Christmas too. Then again, I may be barking up the wrong tree there. *offfers cuddles*

ravynsoul · 02-01-2009, 01:50 PM

Let us know how your doctor appointment goes.. *leaves hugs*

Ms Tears Keep Fallin · 04-01-2009, 03:47 AM

i hope xray pinpionts why your having trouble with your back hope you don't withdraw seek help from those close by give that baby of yours an extra cuddle and smile take care hun best wishes tia xxx

one_step_closer · 04-01-2009, 12:57 PM

We're all here to support you, take care.

Ragdoll · 04-01-2009, 03:11 PM

Went to the doctor. Having an xray tomorrow, will be a fortnight before I get results though.

If xray is normal, I'll have physio. If its not, I'll have to have blood tests to check for things like rheumtoid arthritis

Keeping fingers crossed it comes back normal.

ThinkingofRecovery · 04-01-2009, 08:24 PM

Keeping fingers crossed for you hun. I hope you are listening to the others above and not withdrawing, you need their help. *hugs*

Ragdoll · 04-01-2009, 10:15 PM

I'm trying. Keep having 'bad thoughts' but I keep reminding myself that damaging other parts of me wont help make my back better.

I went into the unit on saturday. In again tomorrow, just for coffee morning, but one of the nurses has offered to walk with me over to the xray unit, so that makes it a bit easier to face.