Hi everyone
The elders among you may remember me. I came on here almost daily between 2002-2004 and then less frequently and I don't think it's too much to say that the support I found here saved my life.
I hope I'm posting this in the right section, please move me if not.
Anyway, I return! To give you all a bit of hope, because sometimes you can't see the light at the end of the tunnel.
First I had to re-register as my registration and mod-dom (lol) has been lost to the ages, and that took forever :-P
Those of you who remember me are probably few and far between now, but a potted history. I started self harming when I was 10 years old due to abuse, my behaviour escalated after I lost a baby. I have seen too much. It took a lot to shake me out of my self destruction (alcoholism, self harm, drug abuse) but I honestly feel that FINALLY it's behind me.
I got married last year to my angel, the one person who's managed to understand and get me through.
And now I am absolutely delighted to be able to tell you that I'm expecting a baby next March.
There is no way I could have contemplated having a baby until recently, I just didn't have the psychological stability to do that. Trust me, it throws the hormones off somewhat, magnifying everything into hideous disasters, but I'm well and happy and good.
I've done two of the most stressful things that can be done in the past two and a half years (marriage, house buying) and I feel like I've got a giant adventure coming.
I feel like I owe a debt to RYL, so if anyone needs any help, let me know.
My article
Suicide - things to consider, now has 960 views. I hope it's helped some of you.
I missed this place. It's looking better than ever.
Love
Dex
