Triggering (SI) - Scars, are fading, can't live without them.
I stopped cutting myself for a long time but i recently started again. I have also noticed that some of my scars are fading. I seriously don't know what do once they fade. I know I will have to cut them again.
Everyone tells me to stop but they don't understand the need. I can stop for long periods of time but once the scars fade the need is their again. Does anyone else have this problem?
you dont need to cut because they are gone, this is something you have told yourself and now believe
try telling yourself that you dont need them, and them going in just showing your recovary
*hugs* i do know what you mean, once the ones i have that have been there for a long time go im not gona be too happy. i think because it shows that you've been through it, and that you have survived, however this doesnt mean you need them because you know that you have
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Caz x
There will always be a happy ending. If its not happy then its not yet the end.
I know what you mean, i realised a few days ago almost all my smaller scars have faded and it all just looks so much less than it did before, i felt kinda angry that I had been through it all and now it looked so insignificant. Then I realised that it was kinda a good way to help me to start moving along with my life, they haven't disappeared they're just taking a back seat which is what my self harm is doing atm. It helped me to move on a little bit and then the urge to recut them all went. I think it's just a case of keeping up the distractions and keep goign with how you usually beat the urges.
'The nights of crying your eyes out give way to the days of laughter' Psalm 30 v 5
Each scar has a story, it tells of an event in your life wether good or bad. I understand how you feel...it's like your history is fading. I still "slip up" sometimes, but most of the time I find another way to record that moment. Its hard, I know...ifyou ever need to talk, PM me. *hugs*
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"So the Lion fell in love with the Lamb"
"What a stupid Lamb"
"What a sick masochistic Lion" "Why am I covered in feathers?" "I bit a pillow.Or two..." "So exactly why did you decide to ruin Esme's pillows?" "I dont know if I decided to anything last night, we're just lucky is was the pillows and not you"
OMG, I am totally the same. I hate it when scars fade or even wounds heal and that triggers me so much.
My longest time without cutting was three months but then, I relapsed.
I don't want to "unlearn" cutting and have my scars faded.
Hugs,
Judith
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hmm, i'm semi covered in SH scars after 10 years of cutting. didn't think of it that way, sometimes i do.
i do't have this many stories though lol.
sometimes its groups of scars tell a story.
Thanks for replying guys. I know now I am not the only one who doesn't like when scars fade. To me they are a part of a life they stand for memories. Whether they are good or bad memories. It doesn't matter I need the scars because I guess i believe they are apart of who i am..
I find it triggers me alot - i was lucky because i was in rehab the last time my major cuts were healing and i was there for like a year so i had time to get used to them fading without doing it again.
I totally relate - i love my scars - i would never get rid of them
totally understand where you are coming from. there are several scars that i hate and wish would go asap but others i love, they tell my story and it really annoys me when people (the ones that know about the sh) say ooh that ones looking better etc. I DONT WANT IT TO BE BETTER! that just makes me wana do worse. still dont want anyone to see them but i want to see them. i dont know why. ive spoken to my manager about it and we havent managed to come up with any conclusions as to why i feel like i need to have scars.
anyway your not alone hun xx
this pic is so i can always remember jen who was my l'il sock monkey friend who has left ryl and i miss her!!!
I have the same problem. My mum found out that i SI she got really mad and took away all my objects... now my scars ae fading and the urge to cut again is more painful than the cut itself.
I know you'l get through it though.
we all will :)
Wow, I can relate to this so much it's scary
My scars are beggining to fade and my wounds have all healed cos I haven't SI'd in a month and it's terrifiying to me to watch the wounds heal and the scars dissapear
I feel like part of me is slipping away and almost as if the evidence of whats been happening to me this past year is dissapearing
I feel like I have nothing to show for the past two-three years
*hugs* stay safe
"In the driest whitest stretch of pains infinate desert, I lost my sanity, and found this rose"
this pic is so i can always remember jen who was my l'il sock monkey friend who has left ryl and i miss her!!! 
