In the more age-unrestricted areas I made out I've been recovered for six months. I want to come clean and point out that, although I haven't cut for six months, I broke two of my knuckles on a wall a few weeks ago, and up until six weeks ago I was taking large amounts of cocaine (a periodic thing carried over from a car crash of a relationship). Figure there's no point in being dishonest here - I just didn't want to bring it up in front of the younger lot. Don't know why. I should also point out that I'm mildly bi-polar.
I'm not asking for help, per se, I just want people to understand where I'm coming from.
I'd like to actually help as many people as I can - my life has been fairly tough, and I am in fact homeless at the moment - but I guess I have to be honest if I'm going to do that...
i care! i'm just not very on the ball today.... sorry.
i don't think i can relate to much of what you said, but i'm glad you felt you could be honest with everyone in vets.
and although i don't know you, i'm sure you're not a loser! in fact i think that you're brave for being so honest.
well done on stopping the coke/cutting - i hope things continue to be on the up for you! like i said, i'm not really with it tonight, but you can pm anytime you want to chat - i promise to be in a better frame of mind. x
No wisdom today, but want to let you know that you're being heard.
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In forgiving others, we are not exonerating them. They may not deserve exoneration. Rather, in forgiving others we are giving up our anger over the fact that what happened is not what "should" have happened or that our life is not the way it "should" have been.
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i feel like people totally take honesty for granted and dont realise how hard it is to actually be honest. so, that being said, huge congrats and hugs for coming out on here and telling all. i hope it was somewhat therapeutic to get that off your chest. about your mum, parents have this way of unconditionally loving us no matter what. i dont know if your mum knows what is going on or if you want to tell her, but maybe just give her a chance to be a mother to you and just love you and talk to you? you dont have to tell her more than you want to.
take care of yourself. well done on the not cutting! that takes so much strength. do you have a doc/psych to talk to? that can really help because getting over this sort of thing is way too much for one person to do alone.
xxxooo callie
I just can't bring myself to let her down again. I've done it so many times... I'm 21 - I should be able to take care of myself, right? My concern is that the tattoos are the only thing stopping me from cutting at the moment... I feel so devoid of anything except bitterness. To be stereotypical and quote a song lyric, I "flew too high and burnt the wing".
Thanks for posting on here, folks, I really appreciate it.
It is not unusual to not get a response within the first hour of posting a new thread, even more so when you say you arent asking for help in your post. Perhaps a little more when you are relatively new to a board and also when you post in the middle of the night.
Please try to remember that things take time, that people may not see a post or just may not know how to respond. It doesnt mean no one gives a ****. It could just be a whole manner of reasons that are nothign personal.
So after that, hello and welcome to Vets.
I am sure that your mother would be far more dissapointed if she thought you couldn't tell her you are struggling. Sure she will be upset, sure she will be dissapointed. But they are natural reactions for anyone let alone a parent.
Why not try some of this honesty with her? Tell her why you are reluctant to tell her. Be honest about not wanting to let her down. There may be an initial knee jerk reaction as thats what parents do, but in time im sure it will be for the best and with something like this you are going to need every ally you can get.
Matthew
~Phoenix~ is my Little Sister of Awesomeness and Self-Delusion :P Bitter Angel is my Mitten Animad is my Top Trump All Im Living For - Is my beautiful and special daughter who isnt called Kim but will moan if i dont add her :P
If you ever want to talk feel free to send me a PM, I don't think that your a loser at all, I've been addicted to some pretty hardcore stuff a while back, as well as spending time on the streets, I know what some of it's like man I won't sit here and BS you as every case is different but I can offer you some support, or anything else you may need.
Thanks guys; I was a little (more than a little) drunk last night. Add that to the fact my girlfriend wouldn't pick up her fone (turns out she'd fallen asleep ) and just everything mounting up on me, and I was being Mr. Belligerent...
Don't worry. Sometimes no replies is the thing that is the last straw. Vets is sometimes a little slower as there are less of us- but I've never ever seen a thread go replyless, so just give us a little time and we will get here :)
Well done for the honesty. I think its a very difficult thing to do. I really struggle to open up to people and I doubt people on here know much about me. So well done, honesty is probably the first step. And perhaps try this with your mum, I agree with Matt- you never know- it might be better than you expect!
and PLEASE dont be offended by no responses for a while after you post. i was the QUEEN of sensitivity when i first joined RYL. and if no one replied to me right away...i would sulk and have my feelings hurt. ive changed alot since then.
im sorry youre in such a tough situation. and i have actually been homeless too.....about 5 years ago. but i got through it and you will too.
6 months is really an accomplishment and you should be proud!!
i dont have much more to offer besides what the others have said.
i hope you find the support you need here. vets is a lovely place to be.
much love.
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A little Consideration, a little Thought for Others, makes all the difference.
I just got sacked! Weirdly though, I feel great!!! I guess I hadn't realised how much my work situation was bothering me until it stopped being a factor.
'Gross misconduct' though, sounds like I peed in the bbq sauce, doesn't it?
Welcome. Everybody here has been fantastically welcome to me recently and I am sure you will find the same.
So, if you didn't pee in the BBQ sauce, which sauce did you pee in - don't worry, only joking. I hope the job situation stays what seems to be a positive thing for you at the moment.
Take care
"Everything is possible through Christ, who gives me strength". Phillipians 4:13
ok...so now IM curious!!!!
what DID you do???(the aquarius in me has taken over-curiosity)
you really dont have to tell...but seeing as so many people want to know.....:P
loves.
xxxx
A little Consideration, a little Thought for Others, makes all the difference.
- don't worry, only joking. I hope the job situation stays what seems to be a positive thing for you at the moment. 
