Hi Guys
Sorry I haven't been around I've been having internet problems. I'm in an internet cafe right now but I can't get here too often. I'm ok. I'm pretty much recovered. Having a baby has done me the world of good. She's 13 months old now and has just started walking. I've lost all my baby weight naturally and I'm at a healthy weight. I didn't do much. Just breastfed and ate healthily (balanced diet - carbs, protein, fruit, veg, fat, treats...)and the weight dropped off slowly over the last year.
A good friend of mine died two weeks ago. I met her when we were in a clinic together in 2003. She's been ill for a long time with anorexia, never getting up to a healthy weight since she first became ill ten years ago. So, I got a phone call telling me she'd died of a heart attack aged 28. I went to the funeral last week and it was the saddest thing seeing her family (especially her mum) burying her at such a young age.
Anyway the reason I'm telling you all this is hopefully for it to serve as a warning to others. My friend never planned to die. She wasn't suicidal and she was making efforts to get better (she was due to go back inpatient four weeks after she died). BUT like the majority of people with eds, she was complacent about recovery. She was always making excuses. In the weeks before she died she wasn't trying particularly hard because she knew she'd be going inpatient. She always thought she'd get better 'tommorow'. I'm not saying she didn't try, because she did. But she never quite gave recovery that final push that could've made all the difference. The last time she was inpatient she discharged herself after just a few weeks because she didn't like it there. I wonder now if she'd stayed and gained to a healthy weight would she still have had her heart attack?
So... let this be a warning. People do die from this illness. My friend was purly anorexic. She never made herself sick, abused laxitives, diet pills etc. She just starved herself down to a low weight. And now she's dead.
Firstly; I'm so sorry about your friend, its so sad to see someone die at such a young age by something so brutel as an eating disoder. I hope shes in peace now.
Secondly; I am so proud of you for recovering, you must have so much strength to get through that battle. I love you so much.
I'm so so sorry to hear about your friend, Helena. I think most of us always think "it'll never happen to me" when really, it could happen to anyone.
I'm so proud of you though. Well done on getting better, sometimes perspective is all you need. Congratulations on the birth of your son too. I hope he grows up to be strong and healthy.
=] xxx
Playing with fire,
You know you're gonna hurt somebody tonight.
And you're out on the wire,
You know we're playing with fire.
I'm so so sorry this has happened! I am now pretty much recovered too, but 2 of my best friends are very ill with anorexia and they are refusing help. one hasn't even seeked professional help...would you mind if i showed them this?
xxx
Im really sorry to hear about your friend. Its really sad when someone passes away at such a young age. I wanted to tell you that im very proud of you for your recovery, well done! You have made such a huge effort to get through this. Also congratulations on the birth of your son.
Sorry you lost your friend. I also lost a friend who i met when i was IP about a year and a half ago so i know how much it is a shock and upsetting :(
I guess the problem with this illness is just that you never think its going to happen to you. Like you are invincible. But then i bet your friend thought that too.
I hope she is now free somewhere...
Take care xxxx
' With hindsight I was more than blind, lost without a clue
Thought I was getting carat gold and what I got was you
