Triggering (SI/ED) - General rant about how I'm feeling - sorry, need to share.

[quautia]

Hey all. Sorry for posting, just want to get this out.

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I SH'ed last night. A lot worse than usual. I've never been a deep cutter, too risky for my liking. Crossed the line yesterday, and cut deeper. Still nothing to worry about, but worse than usual.

I've occassionally purged, but about 3 weeks ago it 'clicked' into place, and I'm doing it 2-3 times a day now. I worry that the SH has 'clicked' too - like I've finally got it, and can't do without it.

Does that make sense to anyone?

[Spoons]

It does make sense.
Do you see a psych/counsellor/ dr at all.
How long have you been purging for?
do you binge before purging?
if you dont see anyone would you like to? do you think you need to?

once the purging becomes a regular activity its harder and harder to break. But i guess you know that already.

Is your wound ok, does it need seeing to? stitches or steri stripping or something?

sorry for all the questions, its hard to respond when you are not sure of the situation/ circumstances.

I hope your ok, if you need to talk just pm me.

[quautia]

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Originally Posted by Spoons

It does make sense.
Do you see a psych/counsellor/ dr at all.
How long have you been purging for?
do you binge before purging?
if you dont see anyone would you like to? do you think you need to?

once the purging becomes a regular activity its harder and harder to break. But i guess you know that already.

Is your wound ok, does it need seeing to? stitches or steri stripping or something?

sorry for all the questions, its hard to respond when you are not sure of the situation/ circumstances.

I hope your ok, if you need to talk just pm me.

Thank you so much for your reply. To answer the questions:

• I see a GP (not a regular one) every 4-8 weeks.
• I see a Pysch every 2-3 months. Had two assessment appointments, now have routine outpatient follow ups.
• I don't have a counsellor or therapist - not available on the NHS hin my area according to Pyschiatrist.
• I've binged since I was a kid, but managed to stop for 6 months recently. Started binging again, and then the purging started.
• I occasionally purged (attempted to vomit once a month, used diet pills, laxatives, restriction and exercie) over the past 10 years, but never rarely and never for long.
• I started making myself sick about a month ago. I suddenly worked out how to do it sucessfully, and now I do it 2-3 times a day. If I eat, I do it.
• I've a few more wounds now, but they all stop bleeding on thier own after a while, so I don't think they need attention. How do I know if I need stitches? What about steri strips?