I love my Nan more than anything. She has been in hospital all over Christmas and New Year.
She has dementia, for years. Long ago she forgot who I was.
Today they have taken the things that were keeping her alive away. They have given her something to make her comfortable.
I havent cut for 18 months but I want to tonight. I want to hurt, because thats how my heart feels.
Now its just wait and see. They wont let me see her because she has become so thin and looks awful. More wait and see.
Im in limbo and its killing me, IM scared it will send me over the edge. I want her to be peaceful, her quality of life is bad. I know its for the best but ..........
She is my Nan and I love her with all my heart. I love you Nan xxx
As you mourn her loss also remember everything you've learned from her and everything she's given you and what you've shared together. Celebrate her life.
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Thank you Lisa so much for you kind words, Im trying to keep SI free. Im trying to look on the good side, that she isnt confused and upset anymore. That she is free.
i am really sorry for your loss. please do all you can to keep safe and talk to anyone who can help you. use all the support you have. im here if you want to chat to me
Jade sweetie, remember you are allowed to hurt inside and you are allowed to grieve. also remember that hurting the outside was never a long term solution, and in this case will just delay the healing process. Its not wrong to get over someone's death, it's just another coping technique. maybe have a few greif counselling sessions to help yourself and make sure you have enough support. love you, mand x
Mand, South Wales, Full-time working, single mother to 2 scarily independent girls.
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xxxbighugsxxx im so sorry to hear, please stay strong she would want that and remember all the good times you shared. She will always be with you in spirit.
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Jade i lost my nan in 96. she has suffered Alzheimers for 6 years or so. Its a terrible terrible illness. The greiving process goes on long before the actualy death because the person you knew died long before.
My nan was very special to me also. We were really close.
I have a good idea of what you are going through. I know how tough it can be. Nans are wonderful though and they only want whats best for us. I know that in her right mind she would not be wanting you to hurt yourself. she would want you to remember her for the person she was before her illness! she would not want you to remember her as she is merely a physical representation of the person she once was.
She will soon be at peace. she will be happier believe me! Remember the good times. Its what she would want i am sure. Its what nans are like!!!
All my love Matthew.
Oh and if you wanna talk bout it then just pm me. xxx
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Thank you so much for all your support and wise words.
My Nan's funeral this Monday. Its been ages coming because we have family from Sweden coming over to be there.
Today I have ordered the flowers and have written some memories about my Nan. She was such a role model in my life. I had some wonderful times with her.
