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Rant
yes I'm just ranting.
Had a hard few days what with going back on meds. Woke up this morning having had a really vivid dream about Rusty breaking up with me - but you know when you wake up and it still feels real? So I lay there for a second trying to work out what it was I'd done to make him leave me, before bursting into tears and having a cuddle to reassure myself he was still there.
Not a great way to start the day. Fortunately Rusty knows what its like to start on meds so he was great, and left me curled up in the corner in a duvet while he started clearing the room for our new furniture.
We managed to put up our new (well, new to us) 'loft bed' and sofa, so now we have more space and a sofa to chill out :)
The day then ended with an email from my ex, refusing to give my climbing harness back, and guilt-tripping me about all the money he ever spent on me... funnily enough I spent money on him too. Yes, probably not quite as much, because I was signed off sick when we met and when we split up, I only worked for one year out of the two that we were together, but I ****ing gave everything I could to that relationship.
I just wanna scream, and if everyone else in the house wasnt asleep, I might just do that... there's always tomorrow!
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