Well with a little coercion I had to bite the bullet today and see my new doctor (who was recommended by my partner's friend, a psych nurse).
He turned out to be lovely - not at all focused on si, more wanting to fix the underlying problem itself, which is exactly how I see it!
I'm back on meds at a higher dose so hopefully things will improve once they get floating round my system in the next few weeks
Still worried about surgery next week, but feeling so much more positive after finally finding a doctor who knows his stuff and doesn't make me feel like a failure!
So for those of you who have crap doctors (like I used to), there is hope!
