Triggering (SI/OD) - lucky you...ANOTHER post (sorry)

[Merc]

why did i take 'just' enough pills/combo to feel spaced, lose all those? Why not line all the bottles up and have a big of water??? well, the water would be nothing too hard...i ALWAYS have water near hand....LMFAO...like u know that or even care...im sorry , i think i have over-stepped.
This is NOT a suicide note/threat
this is simply reaching out and sharing

why just a 'mini'???

[Mimsy]

Even a mini isnt good romp, maybe subconsciously that this is all you wanted, to feel a little away from it and not taking it too far?
Either way, we all love you here and want you here for a lot longer. Take care of yourself xxx

[typsee]

Its just a 'mini' cause you're not ready to give up yet .... and we're not ready to let you go either!

Somewhere deep inside (or maybe not so deep) you dont want to give up the fight .... you know that you have a life to live, and a life that will be worthwhile and fullfilling.

You're going to have to fight for a life that gives you more pleasure than pain, and sure - its probably going to be tough at times .... but you've got people who love you and whom you love, and you do have our support to help you get there.

I know you can hang in there, and I know you can do this Romp ..... dont ever give up the fight!


xxxx

[Merc]

thank you typs..i needed reminding of all that ! : ).
Its true..i dont want to end (most of the time) i want all this **** to end...

As one man put it...

"DO YOU WANNA LIVE FOREVER?" get busy fighting or get busy dying...

thx mimsy too..you are right as well..it was a hope for escape

thaks both : )
luv romp

[Lora]

because youre not ready to not be here yet, and im glad very glad
because you know you can keep fighting despite how unbelievably hard it is
and i know you can
keep fighting romp
love lora xxx (hello again, long time no speak! :)

[hammy]

romp, we all believe in you
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[Margo]

Yep i agree with alot of whts been said.

You know my psychologist said to me the reason i do a similar thing to what you have described is that i want to kill the illness and not myself.

It took me a long time to accept it. When im down i cant see it but when i have clarity i know she is right.

Perhaps you dont really want to die at all but rather kill the illness that consumes you.

Other than that maybe its the thought of reading my boob obsessed ramblings on here that keeps you going :P

Much love
Matthew xxx

*Hands you a peanut butter coated squirrel.*