I'm just posting because things have been getting out of control again. The doc has been seeing me twice a day for the past few days to try and keep me out of hospital. I keep hallusinating badly, so badly that last night I oh so almost rang the ambulance myself, but my vision was so distorted I couldn't see the numbers to press.
Tonight I'm supposed to take some tranquliser to get through night. I'm so scared. The doc says I'm really sick at the moment
massive huggles hammy, I hope things get better for you soon, your always there for everyone else, its time you got some love and hugs urself.
I'm not much good at the moment but always able to give hugs!
Hugs and much love
Mary
xxxx
"Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery and today is a gift, thats why its called the present!"
thanks eeyore and rowie. Yeah they thought they had sorted me out with the right meds too, but I think they may have given me something in the cocktail which is reacting against me, it's finding the culprit without taking me off everything all at once. :(
i have the feeling that it's the promazine thats making me get sick again, but doc today insisted I continue to take it tonight. If tonight is going to be as bad as last night then I am very scared...
oh Hammy. im so proud of you hunni. you have come so far recently.
At one point you wouldnt have admitted this let alone accepted help.
Now you just need to keep fighting this a little while longer. Its just a matter o a bit of tweaking herean there to get you sorted now.
Do you have someone who can come sit with you of a nighttime to keep an eye on you? Perhaps te company would do you good at the moment as well.
you're so right bitter-angel, thank you, your post has made me feel good :). Accepting my illness has been a long struggle but now I try to be open about it. I am accepting the help and I will continue to fight.
I dont have anyone tonight, but I have the crisis team number which i can call if i need to.
thank you
I so understand trying to get meds right. Mine are now finally helping the depression but i'm left with hands that are shaking so much it is visible across a room.
No experience with your med, sorry.
A cherishing hug to you.
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thank you so much everyone, i'm really grateful for you support.
Well I made it through the night which i am so happy about yay, coz i didnt get admitted, i could do this myself.
Off to see the doc again this afternoon.
hey hammy...sorry it all still isnt sorted *hugs*. I am on promazine three x's a day and have only found one problem...i have NO appetite and have been going weeks without eating, just drinking. Other than that i feel no dizziness/illness from it..but everyone is different.
He's going to up my dose next time i see him as it is helping but i am still bothered by hallucinations too.
PM if you wany okay hunni??
*sending you hugs*
luv ya
romp
Hi Hammy.
You've been really supportive to people on this site (including me) and I'm so sorry to hear about the problems you're having. I'm pretty rubbish at advice, but I just wanted to let you know that I care and send hugs.
Also, I'm pleased to hear you made it through the night. Maybe you can let us all know how the doctors went yesterday afternoon?
xx
Appointment with doc went ok. We talked about the promazine but apparantly because I'm still hallusinating, he's upping the dose rather than taking it away, so we'll see.
He prescirbed me more tranq and a friend stayed over mine last night so I wasnt alone. I didnt take the tranq though coz didnt want to be like zombie around them, so last night didnt sleep at all at all.
Everyone is being supportive towards me though so I feel I am very lucky.
At the weekend my best mate from home is visiting me, yay.
which i am so happy about yay, coz i didnt get admitted, i could do this myself. 
