Triggering (Suicide) - ready to give it all up *trig si*

Les · 02-12-2007, 09:25 PM

i am just ready to give up i think. i think i need to quit my job because i feel its my job or my life. i feel like theres no doubt i will cut again soon, and these days i think about slitting my wrists not just needing stitches. i dont know if i should just give in and go to the hospital before something happens or what. maybe if i do that i wont lose my housing and my life and everything else important. i dont even really have a therapist now. i just want to die. i dont know how to stop it. please help me. any opinions would be nice.
les.

Seraphsigh · 02-12-2007, 10:37 PM

I'd say go to the hospital. I think that will help you clear your head and get the help you need right now. Plus, given the decision between job and life...I'd choose life. You're totally worth it, so don't even argue :). I'm sending you hugs from the west coast and I'm hoping that you will keep yourself safe and sound. Keep us updated, okay? Thinking about you...

hoping_one day · 02-12-2007, 10:38 PM

I think hon it comes down to one thing you said as far as I'm concerned - your job or your life - easy question - do what you have to do in order to rid this stress from your life. Jobs can be replaced but you are unique and wonderful, trust me - a job isn't worth all this pain.
If you feel going to the hospital will keep you safe then do it hon. There's no shame in it, infact it shows stength and immense courage. Plus it shows you are aware of your feelings and are seeking the appropriate help for it. You deserve that help - never forget that.
Keep me posted ok? If there's anything I can do - I'm only a PM away.

take care of you xxx

~*forever_broken*~ · 02-12-2007, 10:52 PM

Aww sweetie... I'm so sorry
*snuggles you*
Please take care...maybe hospital is a good idea...esp if you are thinking it might be, you know? Seems that's a good inducation it's time to go.

Be good to yourself.

Much love

Alyssa

Les · 03-12-2007, 12:47 AM

ugh. im at work. my stomach kills. the person training me just left me at the front desk and said do whatever you want on the computer - and so im risking being here. i dont know what to do. when i get home i have to decide something. this just isnt working for me. ugh.

Les · 03-12-2007, 04:42 AM

i am in tears now. i tried calling the crisis line and they were just like blah why are you calling us, so you need a therapist etc etc. i was like grrrr no doesnt she get that i freaking want to kill myself. so i dunno what to do. i can try calling the case manager on call and see what they say. im just crying now cause i dont know what to do anymore.

Les · 03-12-2007, 05:19 AM

i called the case manager on call and same deal. they arent taking me seriously. but if i go and cut, i lose my housing. so how do i keep my housing, get help, and deal with these urges. i swear i will end up dead and i would have had called all them did everything i was supposed to. but it wont matter

Les · 03-12-2007, 05:39 AM

i even talked to staff here. that was pointless. worthless. no one cares if i kill myself. they just all want to go on with their days and ignore it. argh!

~*forever_broken*~ · 03-12-2007, 05:42 AM

Oh hunni I'm sorry...I don't know what to say...
Please take care sweetie.
Much love (if no help :s)

Alyssa

Les · 03-12-2007, 05:48 AM

i dont get why no one can hear me. im honestly gonna be in trouble if i cant get someone anyone to take me seriously. why are the people who are supposed to help you just not at all wanting to.

lower than myself · 03-12-2007, 08:33 AM

Aw Les *hugs*
Maybe the hospital would be a good idea [I've only just got your PM] it's good that your trying to get support, but I'm rather disappointed about them not caring! Maybe quiting your job would be best, that way you can still find time to sort yourself out, maybe find more support from people that are willing to listen!

Like I said PM anytime!

xXx