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Done
I've finally ended it for good. I did it as kindly as possible and set clear boundaries for him staying away from me.
Feel like absolute ****, but then who said the right thing is ever the easiest thing? At least now I can heal.
I feel even more alone now though. He isolated me and now I don't have anyone- I either lost or became distant from all of my friends through the 3/4 years we were together. I feel like I'm beyond the point of trying to reconnect or pick up loose ends, I can't live in the past I have to walk forward. It's just difficult now everyone has gone and I've no way of meeting any new people as I don't study or work.
My family haven't been all that supportive either. In all fairness he did turn up at my house last night demanding answers which was the final push for me to be honest with him and end it. I would have given anything for my family not to be dragged into it. I feel like they're all angry at me about it or something. In all fairness, my mum did take him to the station so I knew for sure he had gone. But no one has bothered to ask if I'm alright, no one has given me a hug, my sister is ****ing off out tonight.
I just feel awful =[
But, ultimately, it's done now and I will eventually bounce back from this...
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