Depression

XSingleMummyX · 24-11-2011, 11:32 PM

I need serious help.... I don't know what is wrong with me later i ust to suffer with post nataul depression when my son was younger and i didnt do anything for him and i could let him go to family members for weeks on end and not miss him, Now i have a 5 month old and i could easily let her and my son go and not care i keep getting the urge to OD and i have tried talking to people when i feel like this but no one understands

MWS77 · 27-11-2011, 03:21 PM

Have you spoken with a counselor, therapist or psychiatrist about this? Considering this has occurred with both of your children and you feel you want to OD on top of it, that a professional would be the best way to go to get yourself the help you need.

hannahs04 · 01-12-2011, 08:56 PM

I felt like this at one point after one of my daughters was born and i was too embarressed to ask for help. I forced myself to make a loving scrapbook of/for my daughter. I sang to her, with made up words of however i was feelin or whatever i was thinkin, i did this for a few months, again, literally forcing myself too, until somethin just snapped and i started feelin better. More like a blob and less like a mess. After that i continued what i was doin but added more activeties too it. I'll admit, i slack when i'm feelin good and pick it up more when i'm feelin bad. But it helps me, and my kids love it :)

Whispered Secret · 04-12-2011, 12:09 AM

Sweetheart, I think deep down you do love your kids and couldn't let them go for too long. You could let them go while you were depressed, but once you felt ok again then you would be DESPERATE to have them back. It was so lovely meeting them earlier - Leo is sweet as, and so was Primrose (though I feel really bad for making her cry, except I think she was just knackered cos as soon as she went back she feel asleep). You are/were so good with them.

Maybe try to do as much as you can to bond with them? Like Hannah has said, singing to them, talking to them, writing them letters for when they are older maybe?

xxx

roiben · 06-12-2011, 03:12 PM

It does sound like you have PND again, hun. Have you sought any help for this? I think it would be a good idea.

Do you have any respite at the moment, any time when someone else is looking after the little ones when you can have a rest and time to yourself? It may be that a relative, or a childminder can help for a few hours?

It sounds like you are very down right now and if you are thinking of oding, it sounds like you are feeling suicidal and may be under the impression your children would be better without you. I can tell you this is not at all true, and that you will miss them incredibly and they need and love their Mum.

Please keep reaching out for help and keep talking to us here. You can get through this.

Roiben x